my personal blog

2009-10-06T23:46:00.016+08:00

ytd went meet stacey and her babyboy at jurong point .
went to her house downstair first to wait for her to get ready .
train-ed down to jurong point .
her boy damn cute can !

let's those photos do the talking .
before going out took some photos . =)

at jurong point deh nursely room .
talking , feed her boy and took photos .

went to {C}'s house to take my thing than called him to meet him .
cabbed down to bishan golf club , he paid the cab fare . (thanks)
took photos at bus otw to amk with kelvin aka ahboy aka xiaohei .
with his 4 friends , they keep looking at me with the make-up i've . (LOL)
bused down to sintua deh coffeeshop to eat .
than walked to sintua .
saw baobei at there ..

went home around 9+ cos he got tagging ..
cabbed home , send him home first .
baby♥ was down on flu , poor him .
i miss him nahs , two day didn't see him . (sobsob*)

i want D-R-I-N-K , D-R-A-N-K & D-R-U-N-K ~
want C-L-U-B-B-I-N-G too ~
i know i think too much on going clubbing le . (sigh*)

that's all ..
nights ~ byeee ~

2009-10-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

i didn't say the reason on what happen so don't say till is my fault ..
got abit is my fault but not all is my fault on that fcuking job !!
no that job i won't die ..

on 2oct , went meet adelene to take eye-liner .
than went tpy central meet michelle they all ..
they went home while i and {Mr.E} keep thinking of place to ton .
when think of a place , already no more bus and mrt to that place le .
so bus-ed to jurong east area to ton , fcuking bored at there lors !

6+ am , bus-ed back tpy .
fcuking long lors the bus .
than he pei me go meet my pil , bought newspaper to see jobs .
finally got le , bathed and trained to his place to wait for him to change than go eat .
go queenway to interview .
didn't call me to work , so need find it again le . =(
than go geylang meet kelvin aka ah boy aka xiao hei . (so many nickname)
than went lor 19 than cabbed down to queentown to meet {C}
wait for {Mr.R} to come fetch us go newton circle to eat .
he treated us eat seafood , yummy ~
so many spicy foods ..
than he send us home . (THANKS)
use lappy awhile jiu sleep le .

3oct ,
didn't go far , go braddell mac there to eat with {Mr.E}
till 12+ , send him to mrt station .
take the last train home ..
than walked home ..
now going to sleep le .

tml i going meet that kelvin aka ah boy aka xiao hei at amk , he treat me eat lunch ..
than down to {C} house ..
time to sleep le ..
nights ~

2009-10-02T12:07:00.002+08:00

woohoo ~
i'm back ..

i've resign from that fcuking job le ! =P
clean the table he got so many comments , say i not suitable for this job .
i work as sale asst not cleaner lehs uncle ! (fcuker)
i not don't have this job i'll die nahs , out there still got more jobs lors !
after that , i went home .
break my own record siol , work for few mins and i resign .
happy is i RESIGN NOT he sack me ! ^^

i going find jobs on monday again , hopefully got office hrs and only work 5days nia !
but i know is impossible , all i found is 6days work and work for 10-12hrs .
will die nors , i know i xian but this the only thing i wanted nia . =)
and {R} don't laugh at me hors , i know you'll laugh at me T_T
hopes i've money to go club tml ~ (god bless)

and my mood is woohoo ~ quite angry too nahs . =P
that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-10-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

hmms ..
tml i start going my work training le .
scare scare sia , didn't work at optical shop before .

working with china people sia , omg ~
working hrs is from 10am-9pm .
so sway that my powder drop onto the floor and now i've no powder to use le =(
no money to buy also =(

hopefully , i can make it yeah !!
hopes no people will come disturb me !! =)
today didn't sleep much ..

tml meeting {Mr.E} , miss him loads muacks*
tml friday le , can don't need book in on sat le ..

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-09-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

today is sunday le , tml jiu is monday le ..
time flies ~

ytd went to sembawang park to go celestine's bbq . =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU GIRL !
around 10+ went to sembawang to accompany {A} eat than train to cine .
walk to boat quay slack and talk cock .
nick ask me to meet him , meet him for awhile .
talk about stacey things again , sigh ..
around 7+ train back home .

i know i'm wrong to have a boyf but i only need love , care and concern from the guy i love .
it seems , all are disapprove him now . =(
i wasn't feeling happy now ..
feel was wrong , tired and more mistaken ..

{R} you won't know how much i feel inside my heart , i choose not to explain cos i don't wish you have a bad thinking on me .
not i don't take serious on the f/s of ours .
you keep mistaken on me , feel so terrible inside my heart ..
you won't know my heart have been keep bleeding non-stop .

you know a sentence that says : heart are bleeding while the sky are raining ?
i do things is got reason on it , not w/o any reason .
please don't mistaken me hao mahs .
i don't need your love , i neeed your trust jiu hao .
what have past already past , i don't need so many friends .
i need a true friend that always will be there for me , hear i say deh things and lend me shoulder to lean on .
edison , have been cheering me up whenever i'm down and hear my things and lend me his shoulder to lean on .
i know , that doesn't mean i can tgt with him but idk how to say .. =/

at wrong time met the wrong guy , at the wrong time met the right guy i need .
he everything is good but he just won't let me do things i wanted . (sometimes)
when i dulan , he still keep make me more dulan till i keep laughing . (bth him)
he really cheer me up alot !
although i'll suspect his love and everything to me .
can say is idk what to do now bahs . =/
i can choose divorce but i don't want hai my son , i don't want he grow up w/o a father .
he sure will ask , who is my papa and where is my papa and why other children got papa and i don't have .
also don't wish , my son was torture by his step-father .
all human will change somehow in sometime .

i don't ask for a long r/s cos i know i won't have ..
i don't believe on love too ..
i only believe on friends , be there when they need me . =D
i know nobody will be there for me so i'm okays for it .
for some friends , i won't trust on them .
from what i see and hear to see and know more about you . (friends)
but i won't comment so much on you . =)
cos i've no right to comment .

watching tv time ..
that's all ..
byeee ~

P.S. : No Comment Is Needed , Keep Your Comment To Yourself . =)

2009-09-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

thanks for the wishes !

so happy that he now was one yr old le .. :-)
one yr old ago , i still suffering but now i'm happy with it =D

he's my everything !
i need go find job asap le , no work can die sia =x

btw , {J} i wish everlasting with your hubby and hope to see you soon . =D
miss you nahs , so long didn't see you liaos .

{C} i going buy a BIG present for you =P
something you like deh , see you on sat le .. =)

that's all ..
byeee ..

2009-09-23T00:25:00.012+08:00

camwhoring at cine's acarde ..
after the celebration , went cine with edison , leonard and two guys .
than ate at LJS , walked to far east to find the perfume but the shop close le .
bought kit and eye liner .

presents from friends and relatives .
thanks alot !! :-D

above photo shown i'm not pregnant .
even got , is of cos is my hubby's NOT other okays !!

sat going drink with jacky , woohoo ~
happy siol , quite long didn't go drink le .
but that stupid {N} is going , wtf .
he going keep disturbing me cos of her* le .
sigh ~~~

not working today cos they didn't call me where to work at .
sad siol , going find job soon le ..
hopefully i can get a job i wanted ! (GOD BLESS)
i don't want to be past deh gin le , so lazy so useless ..

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-09-20T13:19:00.002+08:00

time flies ~~~
tml jiu is my son's first year birthday celebration le , although not at actual day of celebration . (the day he gave birth)
i'm so happy to see all my friends tgt again !!
so many people didn't seen my son before also . (curious right, LOL)

today is my "last day" ton with edison , he tuesday booking in and i tuesday start working le . =(
no mood to work this line , no confident . =(
work le , also headache to find money to go work and eat . (OMG)
mood keep changing non-stop . =(

i'll ask my sis to buy kit for me tml !
if really not pregnant i'll happy yet disappointed .
if pregnant , i'll happy like fcuk . =x
i want a baby girl ! (hope i'll have one)
i and my hubby r/s was so-so , not that stable also not that unstable . =/
it seems to be wrong that i choose the wrong guy , ever i married to him i keep met the good one . =(

fate played me , sigh ~~~
i hate fate !!
how i wish all wasn't like this , if i can choose i won't choose married .
at least i won't feel so stress and tight up . =S

i really hope many many many people can attend my son's birthday celebration tml !
text me to say coming arhs , i damn looking forward tml ! ^.^
no present is okays , people come jiu hao . =D
want take many many photos !! =D
don't disappointed me arhs ! :-P

once i feel you can't be trusted , i'll auto avoid you and don't contact you .
don't ask me why cos idk why too . =)

that's all ..
byeee ~~~

2009-09-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

now i need to say something now .
i will say it on my private blog later . =)
once i delete you away from my private blog , you don't need to bother to ask me to add you back .
once betray me , i won't find you like past . =)

i suspect myself pregnant sia . =x
within 30mins will hungry .
will feel like vomiting . =/
last mth i already come le , than got do that thing with him after that .
won't come so fast this mth .

i find that , there's nobody i can trust on .
friends won't last for forever .
friends will betray each other .
i don't need so many friends , one is enough for me .
but i don't seems i have one ? (laughs)

more inside my private blog ..
don't need to bother ask me to add you into my private blog .
want betray me , than nvm .
i shall just delete all away ~~~

byeee ~~

2009-09-15T09:02:00.002+08:00

omg ~
4days didn't update my blog le . =x

today so fcuk sia .
ytd night went meet {Mr.XH} , he so fierce nahs !
ask me whether got drink beer , i say got .
end up he buy without telling me .. =/
reached there , i stare on the water if not space than he scolded me .
don't want drink , he also scold me . (OMG)

than he walked away , i jiu went meet {Mr.L} and {Mr.E} at khatib .
went {Mr.L} with {Mr.E} , we stay overnight .
till 6+ , we went off to khatib there deh under block eat , drink and smoke .
than 8+ went to take mrt .

i've hurt {Mr.L} feeling ! =(
he say he'll went m.i.a , i feel so hurt and bad ! =(
I'M SORRY LEONARD !
i won't like you nor edison deh !

i've broke off with {Mr.J} le .
don't ask me cos i won't answer !!
leave him is better , i NOT a GOOD GIRL !!
i only know how to hurt someone's feeling . =/

my boy fall sick , i also didn't take care !
I NOT A GOOD MOTHER !
I FEEL SO BAD ALL ABOUT IT !
now i feeling so down . =/

my boy's birthday celebration at TOA PAYOH LORONG 1 , BLK 124 .
START AT 2.30pm , can come early if you want to . =)
PLEASE CONFIRM WITH ME IF YOU'RE COMING ! (THANKS)

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-09-11T02:04:00.008+08:00

hmms . i feel alot of people think that i've m.i.a from blog le .

didn't update my blog for quite long .

i've been ton-ing past two days , with leonard and edison and their friends .

quite boring deh nors ! talk about army things .

also have been bukit timah and cwp to interview jobs .

now i waiting for them to call me nia !

10 days to my son's birthday celebration , 12 days to my son's one yr old !

will be at toa payoh lorong 1 , blk 124 . start around 2.30pm .

hopefully i invite the people can come !!

i using 9016 deh hp number ..

that's all ..

byeee ~

2009-09-07T03:15:00.028+08:00

on 06 sep , ton at braddell mac with {L} and her friends and {Mr.E}(Mr.L's friend) .
they at there study while i being extra to go find them ton . (LOL)

than {Mr.E} accompany me ton too . =)

around 4+ am reached home .

on 05 sep , went to {Mr.S}'s chalet .

so boring to be there . =S

stay at there till 3+am , cab to {C} house and sleep .

till 10+pm than go off .

thanks for the dinner treat !!

*overdue photos*

now i only hope that my ex boss(amk hub) deh friend can call me and go work .

stay at home very sians ..work part-time is better than full time , full time working hrs are long .

my back become more and more weak le . =(

will keep on pain non-stop .

i change the date cos no money go check up , become on 23nov than can see doctor for my back ! (OMG) =(

feel happy with my friends around !

my days become more happier than before le ! (YAY)

will be celebrating my son's birthday on 21sep , around 3+ pm start . (celebrate early)

confirm with me if you're coming !

hopefully will have more people coming on his birthday !!

i using 9016 deh number , can text me . =D

that's all ..

byeee ~

2009-09-04T13:49:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ~~

i not working at amk hub le .
was fire by my boss le .
she xian me alot of things ! =S

today i'll be going wei qiang's chalet .
think not coming back home le .
going down to collect my salary later .
and thanks {L} for treating me eat mac !! (muacks)

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-09-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ~

today is 5th day of working ! i feel happy that everyday i learn something new =D
but boss still unhappy about it =(
xian i do things slow , keep forgetting things . =(
she gave me last chance , till sunday everyday need to know and know what to do ! =(
tml i need open the shop early by myself ! =(
*stress stress*

today is my ahma's last day of funeral . ='(
i cried on the way there and on the way back . =(
memories keep flashing out , how i wish my brain was computer !
just press a key 'DELETE' jiu hao le . =/
feeling so down and unhappy !

happy that i finish the girl thing ! =D
today is the 6th day of it and is finishing ! (YAY YAY)
looking forward on thursday cos i can off ! cos i need go ttsh to do check-up . =)
sat going {Mr.S}'s chalet and going see many familiar faces ! =D

wish me luck bahs ~
really hope i can cope with it !
anything text me , don't call me !
prepaid from 70+ till now 30+ nia . =(
use so fast nors ! *heartpain*
will stop answering calls le !!!!! =D

that's all ..
byeee ~

the day you went away , the day i put all past behind me .
i see there's no point on rmb you ,
tired of waiting and i still miss you so .
if want back , i'll look back .
if no , than just be friend of ours .
take care le , my love ..

2009-08-31T01:38:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ~
i'm back le ..

firstly , i need to wish my hubby a HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
he old liaos , he already 22 yrs old le ..
old man le , jk jk only ..

sad that , i need go my ahma's funeral after my work . =(
today is her last night le , tml jiu need send her off le . =(
R.I.P my beloved ahma !
i love you ahma ..

i've choosen to stop thinking of you le !
i stop myself to stop love you !!
i used something to cover over my pain and everything !
i think {C} know what i'm saying .. (i think)
also don't say i like {Mr.XH} le !!
won't go contact him unless he contact me . (LOL)

ytd(29) i go meet {Mr.J} with {Mr.N} too .
meet at ps than wak to near-by lucky plaza deh kopitiam eat .
{Mr.J} treat me eat !! (thanks)
than last min , they say going boat quay eat .
so went over lors . (-.-)
drink at 7987 deh pub , drink tiger beer . (zzz)
went home around 2+ , reached home at 3am .

didn't go work today cos of my back and laziness . =(
after have a rest , i feel much more better after all the things happened .. =)
got tell the boss that i didn't go work , of cos . =)

once before i don't believe in love , you* gave me the feeling in love .
soon i've a broken heart and now i still trying my best to forget you and your everything !
now left with memories , many pieces of broken heart and a "unwanted scar" .
now idk what's love but {Mr.J} shown me his love and care .
he really very familiar to {Mr.R} ! cos he say deh things and do deh things all almost the same as what {Mr.R} done to me before . =/
seriously , i still waiting for you {Mr.R} but now i'll try not to think of you le !
good luck for finding your girlf ~
that's all , end topic of i and you deh things !! =D

working tml ..
feeling quite sians ..
wed off . (hopefully can !) cos i need go check-up for my back cos i kena my back during packing things . =(
is fcuking painful !! =(

that's all ..
GOOD LUCK TO ME !!
byeee ~

2009-08-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

i'm back ~
back to alive ~ =D

today is my first day of work , quite slack but still tiring cos i didn't sleep enough .
ytd i was damn hurt and sad cos of {Mr.R} .
only {C} and {Mr.J} know what have happen .
really thanks to {C} be there for me !
i'll be there for you too ! don't everything hide inside your heart alright ! =D

also thanks to {Mr.QT} chit-chat with me on the phone cos i was damn really hurt and sad ytd !
although he don't know anything . (laughs*)

rare that {Mr.XH} text me mid of the night when i was sleeping . (-.-)
than 5+ kena awake cos of sms . text till 6+ than sleep back .
8+ kena awake by sms again ! (-.-")
sleep till 10.30 than wake up , bath and prepare . =/

was touch that {T} came down to my workplace find me . (w/o telling me)
also bought rice , cake and bubble tea for me ! (thanks !)
wonder tml got who bought food for me . (LOL)
tml have no money to eat le . (SERIOUS)
GOD BLESS ME*

tml working from 10.30-10.30 , so long . (OMG)
need sleep early le ..
must rmb me arhs , i will seldom coming to update my blog le .
only 1st oct i can get pay . =(

that's all ..
anything text me , don't call !
byeee ~

2009-08-23T23:56:00.019+08:00

HAPPY 11TH MONTHS TO BABY GAVIN !

HIS PROCESS :

drink 240/270/300ml every 3hrs .
porridge nearly everyday .
have 6teeths(3above and 3below) + growing 2 more(above) .
will stand by himself for 10secs .
using things/wall to walk himself .
crawl himself all over the house .
like to throw things around when he seen it . -.-
like put things into his mouth and bite
will ask "mum-mum" from people .
don't like drink plain water still . -.-
can't sit till for 1min .
insist want people carry him when we put him inside the playpen .
will anyhow touch and grab people's breast . -.-
will bite and scratch people

that's all i can rmb le .
as for me , got people say i become more chubby le . -.- (OMG)
still got alot of people say i'm short ! =(

no matter what , i need to forget you .
no matter how hard it is !
i need to change my life style and myself !
i want a brand new of GINNIE KEW !! =D
for me to know , for you to find out . ^.^

i'll stop thinking of you . (trying my best)
will stop crying over you . (trying very hard)
i don't want raining days , i want sunshine !
only {C} know what it means . =)

he(hubby) and fil are driving me crazy !!
i hate them !
guys are so selfish !!
i hate guys , esp selfish guys ! =x
no guy is good in this world !
they only know what's F-C-U-K girls and hong girls .
don't even want bother about girls feeling !
i prefer to be lesbian than tgt with a guy ! =x
(jk only , now still with him(hubby) and don't know will last anot)

brand new of me is coming ..
looking forward on coming friday !
hope i can cope with it !!
JY GINNIE KEW ! I CAN DO IT ! JY !! =D
than a new life of mine is coming , happy happy . (heehees*)

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

today is friday le .
happy that can finally rest , sleep late and wake up late . (LOL)

today i cancel meeting with {Mr.L} cos he text me that time already 7+ pm , kinda lazy to go out le . (LOL)
so change to tml , after i go my friend's baby birthday . =D

don't know what movie to watch sial .
too many choices le .. =x
how how how ? (LOL)

and that {Mr.J} very nice nahs . know what i thinking about .
p.s. he's not the guy i everytime go down to town and waited for him to finish work .
i change from {Mr.J} to {Mr.XH} .

i'll be going for training on next friday and soon start work le .
looking forward ! =D
working is better and work hard for my baby and my O's .
save money first . (heehees*)

what i say i'll mean it , just need more time for it .
cos i've no confident on anything ! =(
hope i can cope with it !

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-20T23:47:00.012+08:00

today i've been missing you again ..
i can't stop my mind from missing you ! =x
i need you still .
i want to see you , really !

while my heart was bleeding , sky was raining . (is real)
today went amk hub to interview job .
i'll going for training on next friday and sat .
i like this job cos don't need stand whole day and quite relaxing .. (LOL)
hope i can cope with it ! (GOD BLESS ME*)

went to town to collect {C}'s phone than went to far east to buy my strap . (-.-)
than waited for them to finish work .
than went home .

today kena nag by my fil .
cos i keep going out , don't want take care baby . =(
i also a human that need to go out plus he not at home i more even sians .
facing both of his parents , i'm tired and stressful . =(
i need a break !

thanks to {C} and {Mr.J}(today just know him) courage me and trying make me happy . =)
i know he left me is a hurtful thing but my life still goes on ..
right {Mr.R} , this sentence is what you teach me before .
friends come and go , life still need to goes on .
yes my life goes on but is incomplete with the happiness .

hopefully , no nagging tml and sat !
cos i going out again . (-.-)
GOD BLESS !!
{Mr.XH} going stop working at town le , so sad . =/

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-20T01:36:00.011+08:00

overdue photos ; 17 aug 09
photos that he keep playing with my mil's phonebook . (LOL)

monday(17/8/09)
accompany {C} to repair her phone .
than we went to her friend's workplace find her friend than we go kfc eat .
waited for her friend to finish work than went home .

tuesday(18/8/09)
stay at home .

wednesday(19/8/09)
went down to town to wait for {C} and her friend to finish movie .
so i text {Mr.J} to accompany me for awhile than he went up to work .
soon they reached , {C} scare me . -.-
waited for {Mr.J} to finish work as going 10pm le . -.-
tgt go cine to eat , kfc again . (LOL)
went home next .

this is a short video of he keep playing the phonebook . -.-

previous post , i said i've feeling on him .
my feeling for him wasn't real , i guess ?
i don't dare to trust on guy on r/s .
cos i gain so many experiment on guys on r/s , have gone tired after all of this !

i think now is already good le , don't wish to change any of it .
i'll go for the interview and hope soon can work ! (GOD BLESS ME*)
than continue my studies . =)

{Mr.R} you left , is the good choice . you make me feel stronger again cos now i know what i want . hopefully , we are still friends . i'll try to forget your everything inside my mind . you teach me the everything are useful ! i'll rmb inside my heart and won't forget it ! JY for your army life and take care of your health . i still here for you ~

i'll be more stronger this time , really hopes i won't fall down ! (GOD BLESS)
i don't need a boyf , i just need a shoulder and a ear .
cos i'll hurt someone and i also will get hurt by them . =(
friends is the best choice . =D
i'll like/love a guy but won't go futher it !!

that's all ..
byeee ~

once before you told me what's love ,
once you left i realise how weak i am ,
now i was strong again to prove you ,
you left is the bad choice .
life goes on w/o you ..

2009-08-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

let's start my topic ..
on 15aug09 , i meet {Mr.R} in the morning .
*don't ask for it and i won't say it at here or you*
with of cos his younger brother around .

than went over to my uncle house , to ask for my father the $20 cos i spend it to buy cig .
before went off , my uncle gave me money too .
but now left only 20+ and i going to cwp later in the afternoon .
so means , no money left le . =(

around evening time , went admiralty find {C} .
with her friend around .
keep disiao me to go find {Mr.J} .
but i didn't , of cos . (LOL)
around 7+ , went take mrt back home first . (phone low batt)
but i drag the time of bathing , become {L} need wait for me . (psps)
we went tpy central to watch "UP" , before that we missed some part cos of my stomach . (-.-)
my stomach full with gas and make me feel so unwell and visiting the toilet so many times . =(
really is damn funny lahs ! (w/o 3D)
thanks sis for accompany me for the night ! =D

around 3+ she went off , say bth le need to sleep le . (LOL)
before that , i keep finding people to go other place but she underage can't go pub . (sad)
so end up , we went back to my hubby's house .
call {Mr.J} to disiao , he inside the pub . (-.-)
make me feel like go pub drink . =/

to {Mr.R} : although you choose to leave but my heart still remain the same . although missing you like hell (-.-) but i still love you . maybe i need time to forget you or maybe use someone's to replace you to forget you . even i do so , i still miss you alot ! you really is a nice guy that i've met , i didn't regret loving you and i wish you all the best to have a girlf ! (JYJY) hope we still are friends ! can we ? =)

i hope this time is the last time i mention about you le .
already 1mth+ le , i still can't forget you . =(
miss you make my heart ache .
no matter how much i miss you and love you also won't change the fact .
i can't do anything about it .
you left is the best choice of yours , i guess .
friend is better , LOL .
my laughter fills with sadness .
i can't find the real happiness inside of me , unless i with you . =S

i didn't intend to divorce now , i only will do it when the day i really bth le than i do it .
(maybe only , it's depend how bad is the thing is)
i really was stupid enough to love a guy to the max till i get is hurt and sadness than happiness !
i really don't know what's love to me and i still believe in love ? (idk , really)
now i scare i'll have another feeling on {Mr.J} !
will keep think of him for no reason . =/
{L} say is just a "hao gan" not love ..
i think i need avoid him to prevent have a deeper feeling on him . (LOL)
plus i was "sot dao" by {Mr.J} , he looks not bad too . (LOL)

tml i need take care baby ,
need to sleep early .
that's all .
byeee ~

2009-08-15T01:00:00.011+08:00

12aug09

went to orchard find {C}'s friends , one seen before . one got contact through sms .
waited for them to finish work than take train back home .

14aug09

today again go the same place with {C} , waited for them to finish work than train back .
this time i keep think of him* .
i miss him so much , hope to see him soon ! =x

hope to see you soon .
if happened that my private blog was public , means i was dead cos i really no courage le .
tired of everything i have le !!

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-11T02:02:00.010+08:00

p.s all are overdue photos .

if you ask me why i can't happy like past , i can say is idk ..
i can't find any happiness onto it .
i feel damn emo nowadays .

i want to get a job fast le !
no money will die ! =/
i really feel like go to a far places that nobody can reach dao me .
but i .. =(

hope to see my happiness again . =)
i'm fine alright . =)

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-10T03:13:00.002+08:00

hello again ~
i'm back ..
wasn't ps by people , was bcos i've no money to ton .

and i owe people money again .. =(
today first time eat so expensive , drink so expensive and watch movie so expensive . =(
owe her so much money now . =(
but i'll return soon ! (no matter what)

today i visit my grandmother , i cried on the spot .
before this hubby quarrelled with his mother .
he jiu shi die die don't want go down , say got thing to do .
idk is real anot .

ask him go down awhile like want his life ?
i didn't insist to force him down than he need say even my ah ma die i also won't go down .
i go down only see her than go liaos .
saw my ah ma , i talk but idk what she saying so idk talk already .
but i cry instead cos i think of my mother .
he say in a harsh tone , come here than didn't talk . talk to her lahs .
my heart gone cold , cry even more .
but i hold back cos going down le .
almost cry when saw my father , step-mother and my ah yi .

all the while , we didn't talk .
reach mrt , go each way .
i go find my friend and he go home . (i guess so)

than he didn't text me but i text him , enjoy and i not coming back home .
called him at cine , no answer .
awhile more , he called .
say at home , didn't go out . (in a harsh tone)
text me say , don't need call me ask nv go out ma ask for wad .
concern him got wrong mehs ?

more details inside more my private blog , don't want "dirty" my this blog . =/
Lorrain , can get lost from my blog ??
i don't need you to entertain ..

you changed , you left and you treat me like i'm a useless person .
say will be there for me , change me and more .
i know i disappoint you but i wanted to change that time you didn't say and left .
how much the words i want to say to you , already no use .
you left me is sadness and hurt .
i really no longer you see the Ginnie Kew le .
i become more and more weaker le .
really getting more and more tired le .
i really want you as a friend .
but it seems to be so difficult .
i only want to say is "Thanks and i still need you" .
i know keep waiting also no use but i only can wait .
cos i also don't know why too .
your ps is really making me damn hurt and sad .
alone in the darkness are scary and lonely , you know that ?
i only need a ear , a shoulder and a mouth to give me advice .

{R} , i need you !

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-09T04:23:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ~
now is 4.23am and i'm here to blog . >.<
reached home around 3.39am .

thought i will have a nice night at pub .
end up , i was alone outside double o .
i can't blame anyone cos is myself don't wish to go home .
i feel sad and hurt that {R} ps me alone at outside .
first time kena ps till so "ke lian" .

i bth le , cab home .
i really almost cry on the way back , feeling damn moody now .
as my sister called me , say my grandmother at hospital .
going can't make it le . =(
before this , i quarrelled with {R} .
see my blog kena spam , my feeling was down again .

now i realise that , know me the most wasn't know me well ..
he left , i kept waiting .
now i was tired , really tired .
tired of waiting for you {R} , really .
first guy i love the MOST and waited for him .
i being so stupid to wait for him !
now you happy mahs ?

today is national day , wish SINGAPORE a "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" !
and WISH , my grandmother can recover soon !
i really can't strong again if she ... =(

tml(10) is my friend's birthday , going meet him later .
drinking ? maybe ..
yeah , i smoked . (again)

that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-08-07T15:52:00.003+08:00

Reply To Tags :

6 Aug 09, 11:38
♥ιяιѕ: done with the linked alrdy. i tot the 1 day boyf of urs is stacey's boyf ?
Owner : ya but already past le . they have ended le .
6 Aug 09, 13:14
Lorrain: Sometimes i just pity you . You have to take care of your baby alone and you are abandon by your husband BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU CAN ****ING GO FIND ANOTHER MAN WHO IS YOUR FRIEND'S EX ! CHEAPO
6 Aug 09, 13:16
Lorrain: And why do you like man so much ? You want them to **** you only ? Or what ? I'm not trying to be childish spamming your blog . I'm just stating the facts . I believe none of your friends treated you
6 Aug 09, 13:17
Lorrain: as friends , they only treat you as a slut . Well , all the best to you and your son .
Owner : LOL ! cos i didn't post any post out that he choosen me . don't say till he don't want me , is i don't want him alright . (ahahahah) i choose man got wrong mehs ? find guy mean to get fcuk from them ? OMG ! your brain is full with dirty things or what ? find guy just to get fcuk ! what a joke ~ and i can see who treat me as a friend and who are not okays . i not grow to be stupid okays !
7 Aug 09, 01:25
MANDY: Candybabe ! I miss you tooo ! ): Alot , shall meet up sooon luvvvvv ! :D
Owner : candybabe ! yeah , will update more on my private blog .
7 Aug 09, 15:00
EIleen: take care alrights. :)
Owner : i'll , you too =)

now than i got more time to come my blogger . =(
cos of something so i can't come .
will say more onto my private blog . =)
shall do my private blog first than this cos is a damn long story onto it .
have updated into my private blog .
http://ginnie-babylove.blogspot.com/

i create this is for those who are close to me and i trusted the friends than invited into it .
others , nahs .
later i'll be going to my friend the friend's chalet .
won't be home tonight . (finally)
will update more soon .

won't be like past , keep online le .
will update again .
byeee ~

2009-08-04T19:15:00.002+08:00

Reply To Tags :

30 Jul 09, 16:53
pb: better dont have lah or you will leave with nothing, more joke lor, LAUGHS!
Owner : LOL ! won't arhs , who say so ? didn't got , i hide from them . work than got salary move out silently with babygavin and fight against them .

30 Jul 09, 18:32
JASLYN: link me up girl
Owner : Linked , as blogshop . =)

31 Jul 09, 00:24
zhiiyong: sis! jiayou! friends will be here for u
Owner : Thanks Bro !

31 Jul 09, 01:32
meiyu (kittymall): ur son getting cuter :)
Owner : thanks but he getting more and more cheeky and naughty .

1 Aug 09, 10:59
Eileen: HiHi, I had link you up.. :)
Owner : Linked long ago but just forgot to put your name >.<

1 Aug 09, 21:54
j: Hello. I like to read your blog. but its getting way too emo. Your post is almost all sadness. hope you can post something positive than making post look more moody
Owner : thanks for viewing my blog =) i also hope i'm happy but i'm not . =/

1 Aug 09, 23:49
MANDY: Candybabe ! *wipe tears* dun cry okays ? Got me , i <3 you ! (:
Owner : Candybabe ! thanks , love you too . =D
3 Aug 09, 03:46
♥`sillybaby: yupps!! i love tat purple dress tooo!!!!!
Owner : suit you to wear that . =)
4 Aug 09, 11:47
{J}: he so li hai sia! flirt with you 2!
Owner : LOL ! he with her cos he say i always break his promises till he tired so he give up on me . again with me cos he wanted to use this chance to forget her and stable down with me . but i just can't do it , i don't even love him . i just only pity him .
4 Aug 09, 14:11
JASLYN: omg!! your that so call "bf" timer you, with another girl!! both of you are mummys. **** that guy to hell.
Owner : LOL ! his name at outside wasn't good , so better break off with him .
4 Aug 09, 18:34
reader: omg..ur that bf.. isn''t that stacey's bf also? Glad u no longer with that nguy/ bet he is another bad guy lor..
Owner : they break off le . so he came back find me =.= but i'm glad that i break off with him . he wasn't suitable for me .

okays , i'll say all over again about him .. (Nick)
meet him on 31july , at city hall .
cos that time , my hubby went out with his stupid anger .
so , his mother vent her anger lors . (wth)
in her eyes , she done is correct lahs .
so i ask him want come out anot , so meet up with him lors .
whatever he say to me , i feel so sad and guilty .
when the time i patch with him , i feel not right cos i don't love him .
i just pity him and bu all those things back .
now i really very tired !!
tired of love and his FAMILY !!

now say what , ask my hubby move out .
our room rent to people , baby give her !?
hey ! ask your mother don't be so what lahs !!
baby is mine not hers okays ! nbcb !
I HATE YOUR FAMILY , CCB !!

that's all ..
so fcuk up now !
how i wish i can go home stay but cannot !
wtf !!
byeee ~

2009-08-03T19:15:00.018+08:00

HI everyone ~

Our Little Poon Family

i guess you all miss my babygavin bahs . :-P
there's goes his photos . =D
can see some photos got my hubby sleeping . (ahahahaha)
those his sleeping photos was ytd i took deh .
i didn't know will have his face inside the photos . (ahahahah)

i really need find a job now .
pil stop giving us money and even eating the money also didn't give .
hubby not working , loads of debts waiting for me to pay . =(
nowadays i only eat either 1 or 2 meals nia .
supper also no money to eat le . (sigh)

more details will be inside my private blog .
this blog is for happiness not sadness .
maybe some sadness .

that's all ..
good nights ..
byeee ~

2009-08-03T00:07:00.087+08:00

just arrived

talking to my sisters

at downstair cos sisters asked him go down and say out loud inside the letter the words .

thinking how to read ?

still thinking (LOL)

my brother in law rushing him by saying time not early le .

than i hear by ah hao by saying : "wo pan liming yuan yi qu qiu yu fang wei qi , yong yuan ai her" "wo ai ni qiu yu fang x2"
than say , like i marry her than you marry her . (by ah hao)
than i almost cry when "he" saying than he say this , i laugh out .
sisters say : okok , let you come up .
come up , he need to find keys to open one door to another door but cos of time cannot do .
he come to the room i am , knock the door say "laopo open the door x2"
than i stupid go open the door -.-
went into the room , need say infront of me .
asked him say all over again .
below those photos do the talking .. (so funny)

cos of his ah yi , we cut short .

straight away open the vein .
sisters asked him "propose" me , there's he goes .

NG for several times on kissing .
cos camera man say cannot cannot .
there's goes again . (LOL)

finally all done ..
before went out , need bow my father before leaving the house .

my 'Kew' family (without sao sao and her 2 babies)

after sitting 45mins of car travelling .
finally reached his house .

we pray , serve tea and eat sweet stuff (not as sweet as my family cook)

his sister , me , hubby , father and mother

need rush back to my "house" to serve tea .

after all done , we went to Fort Caning to take photos .

sisters and us

brothers and us

sisters , us and brothers

me and my sisters

us and sisters

us and our sisters

only us

us and sisters

us and his brothers

us , sisters and brothers

propose to me ?

carried me

hope this is our never ending road we walk tgt

kissed

throw flower to those sisters (click to view)

actually is my cousin caught it than now is one of my friend was married and going to have chinese wedding on sep .
wish her yong yuan en en ai ai , zi sun man tang . (LOL)
back to my "house" to eat , serve and drink .

eating those sweet stuff
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Serve Tea To My Family Members .

my beloved father

my biggest uncle ; owner of this house

my two biggest uncle and his wife

san gu

youngest uncle

elder sister and brother in law

second brother

help me wear
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

nephew(small)

nephew(big)

my cousin ; most close
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

after reach his house , we rest for awhile .
till 5+ , drag myself up to go salon to re-do my make up and hair .
he drag himself to arrange a car to fetch my family down .

Dinner Time

look at my face the expression

his parent and us

us and his brothers

me , cousins , sister , friends and nephew

me and my cousins

o.o THEY KISSED ME !

us and my 'Kew' Families

really thanks to those families members and friends attended my wedding !
although pass for 1yr + le but i still rmb all inside my heart !
next mth is my son's 1yr birthday le , time flies ..

many people will wondering why i'll upload into blogger above photos bahs .
i feel that there's a need that , alot of people didn't seen before .
a need that i need remind myself that i married and have one 'monkey' now .
my 'monkey' refering to my son .

previous post , i said i've a boyf .
now i and him have break off le .
cos i don't love him , i actually feel guilty and pity him .
but i don't hurt him anymore and my status still was married not single .

i still loves my hubby , hoping he will come back .
wei le baby , i need fight over that 'slut' .
no matter how hard it is .
GOD BLESS ME*
i just only hopes , she leave (forever won't come back find him nor he go find her) , he put his 100% of his heart and mind on me and baby .
that's all and i'll do my job as a wife and mother .

but still i can't forget Mr.R .
trying so hard to forget him but my mind still have him , memories keep flashing out .
whenever it flash out , i'll feel like crying and hug him .
but , sigh ~ (no use and no point)
strong and move on is all i can do now , i guess .
just hope he won't avoid me and willing chat with me .

that's all for today , will upload my son's photos next post .
stay tune ~
byeee ~

2009-08-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

yo ~
back to alive , i guess ?

ytd went to city hall meet that Mr.N .
for what ?
drink at 'durian shell' there .
there's have pub/club , really feel like going there ! =/
can anyone bring me go club ? (laughs*)
- JK ONLY ! =D

hubby keep went fishing and i keep kena "nag" by his mother .
sigh ~~
idk how long i can make it ..

i miss him* , he left me for mth .
so suddent that he left me .

some will ask me , i got boyf le is it .
i only can say is yes , i have .
but idk will last long anot .

i will say out when our r/s was much more stable .
i won't say out who is him now .
so don't need to bother of asking me who is it .
(for those know me for yrs/mths)

so that's all .
and i wasn't that unhappy now , much more happier than before . =)
good nights ^.^

2009-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

i'm back ~
today evening time , went out with meet Joss .
tgt with her friend and Joss's babygirl .
she so cute !
will update more details on my private blog . =)

almost cried on the way to there .
i really had enough all of it !!
i'm tired , seriously tired !!

really damn shag and moody .
shall end at here .

byeee ~

2009-07-29T21:48:00.001+08:00

today is a tiring day BUT also a happy day .
why ?
cos my babyboy♥ don't need go over nanny's place ! ^.^

woke up around 8+ in the morning , for my babyboy's scan+check up .
he's fine now , 4 more mths later need go for check up to see he was able to talk and walk by himself .
as now he will talk baby language and walk while holding the holder inside the playpen .
also will find someone/something to give him support to stand up .

while scanning , he cry like nobody business . =(
feel sad and helpless that i can't do anything about it . =(

after scanning , went to Kopitiam to eat our breakfast .
than went to 'K' clinic to wait for his turn to see doctor .
waited for so long lors !
when is our turn , mostly of those parents went back le .

after that , cabbed back home .
reach home already 1+ , so decide not putting him at nanny's place .
we went to tpy central the kiddy palace , shopping .
with baby , hubby and sil .
bought some things back home .

reached home , baby was sleeping .
so am i . (ahahah)
6+ he woke up , so am i .
and now i going to eat my late dinner le !

maybe i'll update on my 'private blog' , shall see how than .
byeee ~

2009-07-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm back to update my blog . =)
just came back from buying durians , with him .
yeah , craving for so long the durian finally i can eat le ! =D
but !!
we didn't talk on the way there and back home .

i've create a private blog .
if needed , i'll go there and update . =)

have no reason why i feel moody while i feel happy .
happy cos he are back home and ask me go buy tgt .
i went 7-Eleven buy drinks while he buy durian .

quite nice at the starting but when reaching the bottom , wasn't nice cos can see the water on the durians . =/
P.S. bought is put inside the box not from the durian shell .

need go sleep early .
need wake up go KKH for my babyboy♥ scan .
hopes he are alright !! =)

nights everyone ~
byeee ~

2009-07-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

爱 My Beloved Cousins ; XOXO `

Cheer Me Up Whenever I'm Down♥

Babies And Mothers ; My Love♥

Always Help Me Whenever I Need Someone♥

♥One And Only ; BabyGavin♥

just want to thanks all those been cheering me nowadays !
without them , i guess now i was at heaven le . =/
will be strong and cheer up . =D
will find a job soon !!
(cos of some reasons , only plurkers know why)
i'll treasure what i've now and won't regret what i have .
might will have some slight changes in my life soon .
(don't tell you why , secrets)
so unlucky that , my "da yi ma" come visit me ! =(
mood going change again !!
wed , going kkh for my babyboy♥ scan .
now i going eat my tibits than mac le .(save money)
shall end at here .
many people waiting to see my blog le . (ahahah)
take care and byeee ~

Labels : I'm Alright And Fine Now ! Feeling Much More Better Already ! Thanks ALL !

2009-07-26T20:40:00.001+08:00

My Cheeky BabyBoy♥

Side View Of Him While He Playing With My Keys

Shake My Keys

Last But Not Least , My Naughty BabyBoy♥

Muacks To My Love Ones♥

I Missing You And Waiting For You To Come Back♥

many people asked me "do i still love my hubby ?"
my answer always is "idk"
the fact is i still love my hubby .
he won't know how much i love him .
i've been crying all nights just bcos of him ! =(
loads of people cheer me up . (thanks and you all rocks my life !)
esp cindy , joss , mandy;candybabe and zhiyong;brother .
they guide me , cheer me up whenever i'm down .
and also got others too ! (big thanks from me to you !)
XOXO ``
hope to you all SOON !
free must text me to jio me go out !! (^.^)
that's all ..
byeee ~

2009-07-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

yeah .. i'm back to alive !
for days , i've been so moody even now still feel moody but feel better already . =D

thanks to those ladies cheering me up !!
you girls rocks !!!!!
love you all , muacks* .

don't call me as i've no mood to chat on phone , text me better !
sorry !

now idk how to settle my bills . =(
500plus . sigh !
think i need to be strong and need more confident on working !
GOD PLEASE BLESS ME !!

babyboy was given to nanny take care for weekdays and become i more and more lonely and more moody than before ! =(
hubby wasn't there for me , nobody at home .
want work yet no confident and no heart on working . SIGH !
need more du li le !!

GINNIE KEW YOKE FONG , YOU CAN DO IT !!
JIA YOU JIA YOU !!
NEED TO PAY BILL AND FEED BABYGAVIN !!
DON'T DEPEND ON THAT IDOIT !
RATHER GO OUT THAN WORKING ! AH !!

blogger keep giving trouble , so irratting !
tml will be better .
so shall end at here ..

bye ~~

2009-07-24T21:35:00.002+08:00

just changed my blog skin and upload some of my past and this year photos . =)

is it nice ? laughs*

can't update my babyboy's things , due to blogger got something wrong . =(

blogger arhs blogger , faster okays !
please guai guai hao mahs .
i need to update my things ! =x

nowadays , i wasn't in deh good mood .
i need someone to lend me shoulder to cry with .
but i don't see there's one for me . =/

you laugh at me , not making me feel good .
you drift apart from me and i trying to avoid you .
i sucess that i didn't contact you but i still miss you . =/

sigh ~
everything gone wrongly this time .
i'm strong in the outer but my inner wasn't ! =(
my inner was keep on bleeding non-stop .

i miss my mother , my father !
i wish i can go back in the past !
i don't want currently the things happening around me ! =(

shall end at here .
bye ~

2009-07-23T21:06:00.007+08:00

again blogger give problem . =(
shall just update with some of his photos . =)

HAPPY 10TH MONTHS OLD TO BABYBOY !

-drink 240-300ml of milk . (due of teething so become he drink lesser)
-eat ceral once .
-got 4 teeth plus growing out one more . (3above and 2below)
-able crawl smoothly .
-able stand up himself for 3sec .
-will say "mum-mum" if he wants food .
-will say "ma ma and pa pa" .
-loves standing up and sitting down .
-trying to walk by himself .
-love biting people . (anywhere he also will bite)

that's all i can rmb , you may flip back to his process in my past . =)
shall enjoy looking at his photos and video . =)

yummy yummy ~

mummy , where you put my biscult ?

mummy bought for me the biscult . ^^

where's my biscult go to ??

searching for his biscult .

still want some more . can see he still haven't eat finish his old one .

eating his biscult , even i also like eating his biscult . =x

2009-07-22T17:37:00.002+08:00

don't know what's wrong to blogger .
cannot see properly all the things inside to post deh post . =(
wanted to upload photos , become cannot le . =(

and i no longer working at bugis junction le .
wanted to quit but she called and said my boss find a replacement le .
so my day end like this .

not going find job first , need a break after all things happening around me !
i need a shoulder and a ear and a heart that i can trust you .

but i don't have . =(
so bear with all things now .
so suffering ~

hope to see ah pek this sat !
i got many many things to tell him and need his advise ! =)

that's all .
byeee ~

2009-07-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

i'm back .
today damn tiring and damn nb fcuk-up !

just bcos of not feeling well when i woke up .
than is see my mil face .
than is my working friends .

just bcos idk and i'm new to this line , you all can anyhow say me and bully me !?
today i ate late lunch bcos of that cb wendy !
say need clean all first and stock up those stock .

finally , siting went go buy food . =)
ate finish within 4mins .
ate wanton noodless .
know me well , you'll know how slow i'll eat in deh past .
but today i was damn hungry and yet need wait till so long . =/

so amy asked me "you go back and think . this job whether suit you anot . this job is need go approach customer and not keep quiet ." and more but due i too angry , i forgotten le . =/
so no matter what , i'll bear with it till 7 i get my pay ! so this week days , i'll find a job to cover over . =)

GOD BLESS ME*

after work , i at city hall .
i text that cb wendy .
said : "no matter what , i'll work till i get pay . and i'll go resign . don't need say my bad words behind me . don't judge me by just working only 2day . my character not that open and i try my best to approach customers . na dao you all born jiu will work . no right . so don't need say anything behind me !"

angry till i feel no strength . (don't know why too)
angry till almost drop my tear . (on deh way back home)

i also skip my dinner cos of wendy one word .
"LAZY" so i didn't eat my dinner and lunch .
cos i wasn't allow to take out 40 bucks .
so i went buy famous amous to eat .
so left 30+ , told her .
travel 2 time to draw money out . yet she say "LAZY" i can't draw out my money and can't eat .

today also quarrlled with QT . (don't wish to mention)
today damn unlucky ! =(

shall end here .
nights ..

2009-07-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm back to do a some update .
this post is for me to vent my anger and complain .
you want you can continue read if not can close/go other website .

i really don't know how to stand my mil .
her attitude are really sucks !
this can't that can't !

want bring my son out also need ask her !? (wtf)
today i've no strength to quarrel with her . (damn shag)
feel damn moody today . =(

say she don't allow me go out , is SHE DON'T LET ME BRING BABY OUT LORS ! (nbcb)
like her son . (damn fcuk-up)

i work also wrong .
i know i last min work but i've no choice mahs .
now is my fault again . (sians)

ytd work , see their fcuk face .
say my bad words behind me . (nb)
i first time work in this line okays ! (ccb)
i've my own limit deh okays .

i need try my very best to rmb all price already if not i don't dare to ask them what they want . =(
feel i'm so useless ! =(

not a good mother nor a good wife nor a good working partner ! ='(
HAISH ~~

shall end at here bahs .
take care and byeee ~

2009-07-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

hieee ~
i'm back !
got anybody suspect whether i got go work ?

so tiring now .
reached home not long nia .
why ?
cos i working ..
at bugis junction , lvl 3 .
got heart jiu find it yourself . (laughs*)

today should be going pub drink but lazy lahs .
too tired + no money go home !
go there only few hrs nia , not fun . (laughs*)
need go remove my make-up and head to sleep liaos .

take care everyone .
byeee ~

2009-07-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE ~
got anyone miss me ?
been days that i didn't update my blog le .
feel so bored nowadays !!

and my bill are making gone crazy !!
500 over , how to pay . =(
he also don't want help me pay also . (wtf)
HOPE I CAN FIND ONE JOB TO WORK WITH !
if not , i'll gone crazy soon !!
my previous bill still haven't clear .
now all come in one time . (OMG)

yes ! tml friday , finally le !!
i can take some rest le . (YAY)
sat go drink !
don't ask me i go with who , i won't say .
(still don't know going where to drink)
so don't need ask me . (thanks)

think tml i'll edit my blog , once again . (feel so messy)
this time , i need to be more stronger than before !!

need pay all my bill , study for my o'lvl and look forward for babygavin to study .
for Mr.R , i decide to put him down and forget him !!
*cos of some reason , i need to do so* (don't ask me why cos i won't say why too)

yes ! sat i going to work le ! (HAPPY + NERVOUS + EXCITED)
work from 12 noon to 10.30pm , at tpy area .
selling things .
only work from friday-sunday and $5/hr .
hopefully i can't cope with it !

to QT asshole :
now i go work le , don't play play hors . laughs* shall meet you when free . =) will meet you soon alright , don't jio me go drink during weekdays . i can't go , want jiu either friday night or sat night . =)

looking forward to stacey's baby full mth , my boy's 1st birthday and more outings !!
so long didn't enjoy at outside le . (due to i've married + have one boy) *haish*
girls , jio me out when can alright . =D

shall end at here ..
take care and bye everyone ~

2009-07-14T21:53:00.026+08:00

today , went to bugis with cindy .
for my interview . (hopes she'll call up and tell me when can start working)
i need to work hard and save money le .
no money really will die ! =/
i need pay all my bills by myself le .
i shall not depend on him nor my friends and families le . (trying)
GOD BLESS ME !!!!!
HOPE I CAN WORK !!!
NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS !!
GINNIE KEW YOKE FONG ! JIA YOU !!!!!
also hope i and my hubby's relationship can improve and have a stable marriage .
(hope to have second baby on 2011/2012 and have one owe flat on 2010/2011)
today , didn't edit my photos as i very lazy to edit . (heehee*)
shall enjoy it ..

this is deh minnie mouse that cindy gave me ^^

cindy and gin ; mtb and mother of one

girl , thanks for deh day . you cheer me up loads ^^

ytd's photos . due i went out with my hubby so didn't upload . =)

that's all . =)
even you treat me that way , i still love you so . =/
i still miss you and keep thinking of you . (don't why too)
you treat me in this way , you not going making me feel better .
yay ~ friday or sat night i going to drink !
so happy and looking forward . ^^
girl , today we talked so much and i feel quite happy when i with you .
meet up often . (if can)
take care and nights ~

2009-07-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE ! ^^
got anyone miss me ? (LOL)
i miss Ms.Meow and Mrs.J now !
i try so hard to forget you* , end up i can't do it =(
sigh ~
i still love you , miss you and can't stop thinking of you .
yes ! next week maybe i'm going to go drink . =D
meet up on next week =)
been staying at home for one week le . =(
nobody jio me go out .
so no choice , stay at home ..
yes , i've clear 100 bucks for my bill ! ^^
thanks to my father and Mr.J , lend me money .
still left 100 bucks , who can lend me first ?
sep confirm return you !!!!!
i going find job le , no money going to die liaos . =(
GOD BLESS ME ~
BLESS ME TO MANAGE FIND IT ONE !
I DON'T MIND XINKU .
ALL I JUST NEED MONEY NOW !!!!!
also help me look out for job too . =)
no fast food / waiter / pub .
cos i've injure my hand before so can't carry heavy stuff ! =(
i fall , i climb up again .
don't know when i'll break down again . =(
always nobody be there for me when i'm down !!!!!
who really can be there for me ? =/
after you left i trust nobody , don't know .
even you're back , i also feel weird .
friends always comes and go .. =(
when they come back to my life , they changed .
feeling fade and weird . =(
i kept some distance to them .
feel quite difficult to believe someone .. =(
i know some also have difficulties to believe on me , so i was understandable . =)
sometimes , i miss my pregnancy time and my babyboy♥ just born deh looks .
times flies ~
shall end at here .
byeee ~

2009-07-10T18:37:00.024+08:00

i'm here to update le . =)
been so long didn't update my blog le . =x
cos i waiting for them to send/upload those photos . =)
now i get it le , thanks ~
mostly is overdue photos .
i've not text/call him* for number of days le .
just can't stop thinking of him . =/
trying my best to forget him* .
start my life new , alone ..
used to it to my alone life le .
and congrats to lovelygirl♥ that she pregnant le . =)
be careful of your health and eat more and rest more .
hope to see you soon ..
seeing so many people pregnant , give birth and pregnant again . =x
i feel like having second one but can't . =(
cos marriage on rocks now . =/
wish that we didn't married and now was single .
single is better ! single life ROCKS ~
shall enjoy those photos ..

whatever i've been through i already have been through .
now we have stop contacting each other le .
hope you're fine and please take good care of yourself alright .
i still love you and i miss you .
good-bye le , Mr.R .
shall end at here .
byeeeee ~

2009-07-10T17:43:00.005+08:00

firstly , i upload those 2 videos first .
after eating , finish editing photos and i'll upload !
stay tune ...

2009-07-06T16:12:00.002+08:00

Firstly , i need wish my cousin and my sil a happy belated birthday !
secondly , stacey going give birth le .
hope she can cope with it !!
night time , her babyboy will be out le .
so curious to see her babyboy !!
hopes , tml can see her baby .
ytd , i was sick after i reached home .
deh highest temp is 40.6 degree .
8+ went to polyclinic see doctor , after ate medicine i was alright .
now i'm worrying about her , scare her can't cope with it .
she also didn't text me/ring me up .
as for Mr.R , i try my best to forget him yet so difficult to forget him .
idk what's wrong with me le . =(
also being weak on bgr .
haish ~
i prefer being alone , even i married i also feel i'm lonely .
he rather go out than accompany me . =(
idk why he changed to another person , treat me so nice .
think is he saw Mr.R said deh words in msn bahs .
shall end at here , no photo today ..
take care and bye ~

2009-07-04T23:50:00.008+08:00

yeah ~ i'm back !
got anyone miss me ? tsktsk*
ytd went to my cousin ; erica 21st birthday celebration . =)
i wrote on deh book is , thanks for be there for me .
(which you can't see it)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!
finally i can upload photo le !!
i go download Mozilla Firefox and YES can upload photo into blogger le !! ^^
below is her random photo ..
and took my own photo .
and i cut my hair le , can see it ? =)
i love my hair now !!
cut fridge too ~
just cut abit only nia .
next i'll be aiming to reborn or perm my hair but !
i'll return money first than do !
will be around sep than return ~
GOD BLESS ME *
while i from bedok bus back to tpy , i think loads .
will try to be strong when he wasn't there for me !
i shall independent !!
GOD BLESS ME *
AND GOD PLEASE GIVE ME MORE COURAGE AND STRENGTH !! *
same wording , i'll change till deh day you willing accept me as close friend and willing talk to me . =)
i don't want to be so WEAK !
I'M GINNIE KEW YOKE FONG AND NOBODY CAN PULL ME DOWN !!
i'll use smile/laugh to cover all my unhappiness and sadness .
i still deh one , keep making you laugh like mad .
heehee *
that's all , shall enjoy those photos . =)
i love being myself now , being happy and strong ..

good nights everyone ~~
i still love you as before and i still missing you loads !
will you be mine ? =}
take care ~~

Labels : I Love My Friends , My Family And My Babyboy♥

2009-07-03T18:07:00.002+08:00

i'm here to update little bit of thing . =)

i going to my cousin's chalet later on . =)

tml than will be back .

guys out there , don't come to find me after i and him not that close .

i don't need guys , i only want my boyboy . =)

take care and bye ~

2009-07-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

zzz !
can't upload photo into blogger !
so suay ~
zzz !
finally , tml i can go out ton le !!
so happy ~
go chalet , celebrate my cousin birthday ! ^^
HAPPY BELATED 21st BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!
love you ~
i going have fun tml , heehee*
hopefully got beer can drink .
laughs*
this is deh last time , i say i and him deh thing le .
i choose to leave you le , Mr.R
is better for you , you still have long ways to go .
with me around , you not happy and worrying me so much .
i only can say i still not use to it , the day without you .
seems to be not correct .
i too depend on you le . =(
all i need is time to heal my own wounds and be strong once again .
can say i wasn't strong all deh while . =/
also not happy .. =(
haish ~
maybe in this way , you'll be much more happier bahs . =)
i still be here you deh , Mr.R . =)
anything you still can text me or ring me up =)
shall end at here bahs , hopes can meet you soon . =)
good nights everyone !! ^^

2009-07-01T23:24:00.002+08:00

today , i didn't sleep well .

woke up around 4+ till 10+ .

thought today got scan for my babyboy♥'s head .

called up to kkh , they said is on 29th july .

10.10am for deh scan and 12.10pm for seeing doctor .

today feel damn moody , sleepy and tired ..

tired of my life and everything .

feel there's no meaning staying a life . =/

idk what's wrong with me ..

haish ~

very tired of staying at his family , tired of their quarrellings , tired of not being so freedom . tired of i actually wasn't a good mother of babyboy♥ .

i really feel like drinking right now !!

to numb myself ..

you changed , our feeling fade and we wasn't as close in deh past .

if you want to leave , i'm okays with it .

only few days or weeks or even mths i'll be using something to numb myself .

i'm tired .. really is tired ..

nights everyone !!

2009-07-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

firstly , today(1st july) is i and my hubby lst anniversary of our marriage (r.o.m) .

happy one year anniversary to our marriage !

been so tough for our marriage !

have ren all those things for 1year+ .

so difficult to pass my days after that incident happened .

feels so tiring now . =/

nobody able lend me money to pay my 200 bucks of hp bill . =(

not even his family nor my family .

sometimes , i blame myself for keeping babyboy♥ . =(

i know i sound like i'm a irresponsible but idk why i keep him for .

bcos of him , i and my hubby's relationship crack and i've no much freedom on it .

but i didn't really regret it as see he grow up each day , i'm happy with it !

no matter what , i need to be brave again and find a part-time job to work .

continue like that , i'll die !!

GOD ! PLEASE BLESS ME I'VE A JOB TO WORK !

GOD ! I NEED YOUR HELP AND COURAGE !

GOD ! PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!

to readers ! can stop saying me when you don't even know me !

can use your fcuking brain to think first before you saying me !?

whatever i done , also NOT YOUR PROBLEM !!!!!

i don't need your any comments ! i live for myself and my love ones !

FROM NOW ONWARDS , I WON'T REPLYING YOUR UNWANTED COMMENTS !

AND PLEASE KINDLY GET LOST FROM MY BLOG !

KNOW ME BEFORE YOU SAY ME !!

i'll try my best to find a job , from 5-10/11pm or only work during weekend .

anyone , got jobs available mahs ?

if do have , please leave a tag on my tagbox .

thanks =)

hopefully , got people can lend me money to pay my bill before it cut off !

GOD , BLESS ME PLEASE ~

readers , shall read at this website and take note of your health .

http://www.cdc.gov/h1n1flu/sick.htm

shall end at here ..

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-29T18:24:00.014+08:00

i'm back to update le =)
ytd was too lazy + no mood to update my blog . =/
those photos and video are taken on 27june09 =)
took when i was back from watching movie .
didn't take any photo with him ..
and idk why i don't believe in love .
i don't believe any hopes , i only believe what i seen in my eyes and sense it . =x
don't ask me why cos idk why too .
photos time , enjoy it bahs .

photo of my babyboy♥

a video of my babyboy♥

shall end at here ..

nights everyone !! ^^

i won't say i and Mr.R deh things le .

don't ask me why too cos idk why too . =/

2009-06-27T15:28:00.005+08:00

(23june09)

HAPPY 9TH MONTH TO MY BABYBOY♥ !

drink 300-330ml of milk . (per 2-3hrs)
drink ceral and eat porridge .
have 4 teeth . (2 big on above of his gums and 2 small on lower gums)
able to hold onto his milk bottle . (sometime lazy to hold)
able to sit up his own . (without anybody helping)
love standing up . (with something/someone's support)
very naughty .
trying to walk . (with something/someone's support)
not really like to sleep .
start calling "papa" than "mama" =( *jealous*
love watching tv .
love to bite things .
will cry when he can't reach something he really wanted .
love talking on his baby language .
will beat people and pull people's hair .

that's all i can think of now .

as for me , i think i don't have any changes . =(

i going out later , going amk hub .

a guy treat me watch movie . =)

thanks ~

going to bath and prepare soon le ..

anything sms me yeah . ^^

update later again .

EDITED ~

i'm back to update le =)

reached home around 11.30pm .(i think so)

feel like go ton at outside sia . =x

but no money . =(

sians ~

i watched "Transformer" and its nice and exciting !

i watch till my heart nearly drop out . =x

feel like go clubbing . =x

didn't go clubbing before lors . =(

idk why feel like drinking and smoking sia . =/

i miss my night life .

go out ton and go out drink .

but now i changing those bad habits !! =D

so don't worries i'll smoke or go drink . =x

trying to quit smoking and drinking yeah ..

shall end at here .

nights everyone !!

2009-06-26T23:37:00.002+08:00

i'm back after meeting lovelygirl♥ and laughing pill with babyboy♥ .

they come my hubby's house downstair .

11pm jiu go off le , they left also .

after feed babyboy♥ jiu come online le .

my back pain is killing me !!

haish ~

i miss Mr.R , how i wish i can meet him . =x

h1n1 really making me so difficult to be human lors !

cannot bring babyboy♥ out . =(

haish ~

h1n1 please go away ! ~ ~ ~

sunday i going my brother's baby full mth .

hopefully , can bring babyboy♥ go !

shall end at here .

nights everyone ! ^^

2009-06-26T02:01:00.002+08:00

我从来没想过能再和你牵手 .
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛 .
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂 .
一直忘了说我有多感动我有你 .
你知道我会有多难过 , 所以即使到最后还微笑着要你加油 .
在脑海里头我多希望你还在我左右 .
其实这份爱我没停过 .
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了 .
答应你我会好好过不让这些眼泪白流 .
我要你知道我还放不下你 .
我想我还是不够成熟 ,
还达不到你的要求,
我真的没有想的太多 ,
只是怀念那些爱过的感觉 .
说好的幸福呢 ?
我懂了不说了 .
爱淡了, 梦远了 .
我哭了 , 我累了 .
i only want to say i still be here for you , mrR .
i know you're tired , i also tired .
but i not tired those feelings .
but yet , those coldy feeling are really making me feel so tired .
i was lost , i am tired .
i wish i can be there for you !
can i ?

2009-06-25T21:41:00.003+08:00

hellooo everyone ~

i'm back to update le =)

today , i no mood to update babyboy♥ things .

although he is back home but i still feel upset .

i feels that , we won't be that close in past le .

maybe , in this way will be better bahs .

i feels so moody now =(

everything changed so fast and don't wish to be in this way but still changed ..

as he said before , life still goes on ..

no mood to say le , shall go play my game le ..

nights everyone !!

guess is our feeling have fate le bahs ,

guess , we won't like past so close already ,

think i should let go those feelings ,

think i should forget you and let you go le ,

think in this way you'll live better and happier .

take care le , my love♥

2009-06-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

hi i'm back =)
feeling not so good now =(
he actually told me he unhappy of something , he own self say he don't know what he unhappy about .
but i know is bcos of me ..
say out deh wrong things =(
i'm sorry !!
please kindly don't spread out what i've said to you .
*(you know who you are)*
i always done deh wrong things .
how i wish i can become more clever so can stop making people angry/unhappy bcos of me !!
now , my bill going cut off le ..
still haven't pay for it . =(
my back also keep making me feels so painful !
you won't know how's painful it is !
you won't know how's suffering i suffer now .
so stop asking me go work , as i really can't take deh pain .
yes , i went out cos i don't wish to stay at his house .
i'll feel damn moody when staying at his house .
i go out i also moody ..
go out with a couple . =/
haish ..
go out sians , didn't go out i more even sians .
AHHHHH !!!!!!
is really killing me now !!
i hate myself and i just being useless now !!
all crush at deh same time !! =(
why fate like play tricks on me !?!?!?!?!?
haish ..
no mood to continue le ..
nights everyone ..

2009-06-23T23:56:00.013+08:00

today went meet my lovelygirl♥ and laughing pill =)
i keep ruin deh night off =(
keep on droping my tears =(
when i recieve a sms from silly♥ , he actually told me he was sick =(
i drop my tears even more !!
so scare and worry he'll leave me !! *TOUCH WOOD*
i really miss him alot and i need his shoudler so badly !!
i went polyclinic to follow up babyboy♥ check up .
e nurse said he actually shorter abit =/
but is normal ..
weight 75% and he is doing good =)
as for me , i went for seeing doctor .
said my bone are alright but don't know gone worst le .
refer me to ttsh to do more check up =x
as polyclinic wasn't that good enough to do more check up .
tml , i going back to polyclinic to see my health .
shall do more updates tml =)

there's nothing i can help you in your illness .

i hope you're alright and be strong to fight againist those virus !!

i want to see you healthy and said me !!

take care my love♥ , i miss you loads =)

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-22T23:07:00.020+08:00

there's loads more below =)

do enjoy it , although is ugly =x

sunday , my sil bought babyboy♥'s pram and his bed or playpan come . =)

his pram are big , not used to it .

abit clumsy when using it =/

shall just enjoy looking at my photos =)

2009-06-22T22:49:00.029+08:00

let's those photos do deh talking =)
*below is all overdue photos*

sushi tei =D

all are my cousins =D (cny ; day one)

my brother-in-law , me and cousins =)

my sister and my cousins =)

me ^^

my biggest nephew (open door for groom) and me

my daddy and me =)

my biggest nephew , my sister , my father and me =)

san gu and me =)

my lovely cousins =D

they kissed me ! =x

da gu and me =)

i've done with all those photos !

so tiring to edit and tidy them ! =x

mostly all photos are inside my facebook =)

i just copied some of it to edit nia =)

still got loads more of my chinese wedding photos .

all inside deh cd-rom =)

silly♥ was sick ! =(

now he inside hospital . =(

hope you're alright !!

i miss you and i need you so badly !

going polyclinic to check up for my babyboy♥ and for my back =)

hopefully , my back are alright !!

wed going lucky plaza to see private doctor to see whether i got infection anot .

hopefully are alright too !!

shall update my babyboy♥ things going on tml . =)

tml jiu is his 9th mths big le =D

time flies ~

shall end at here ..

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-21T21:44:00.003+08:00

*(will be a damn long , want jiu read if not nvm (=)*

爱太痛 - 吴克群
吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭人
不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了
吃不能吃睡不能睡

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

by2 - 我知道
从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

by2 - 不够成熟
我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一刻我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

above three song of lyics is say how i feels and what i want to say ..
{esp , deh song "不够成熟" that i trying to say i 不够成熟 and all deh time i just acting happy .}
爱太痛 is deh song i feel that i'm tired of loving someone already and i prefer people love me than i love someone .
cos i don't believe in love le ..
ytd's night , i cried badly .
nobody be there for me ..
only my friends be there for me .
i need a strong shoulder to lean on , i need a guy to love me with his heart , a guy that will be there whenever i needs him , a guy can protect me , a guy can faithful to me for forever .
is that so difficult to find one ?
why i just can't find one ?
why fate is playing on me !?
我知道 is deh song i'll think of silly♥ and {J} .
{idk why too =x}
to those people out there , don't ask me why am i going girl's home nor prison .
at here , i said deh last time !
cos i commit suicide , this time is deh second time .
although want to die but yet can't die .
fate is playing tricks on me !?
so many people nag/scold/said at me that i need to be brave for my babyboy♥ .
yes , now i trying my best to forgive and forget everything and start my life new !!
{hopefully , this time fate didn't play tricks on me !} (please ~)
all deh while , i wasn't happy ..
i just trying to be happy , i bring joy to friends not sadness !!
i'm sorry to my beloved friends !!

2009-06-21T17:43:00.012+08:00

as what i said , upload photos =D

not much , hopefully is nice huh .. =x

went to henderson waves .

we talk cock , have joy have fun but have emo time too =x

i think alot and i miss him so badly !!

i need you silly♥ .. =x

i know you now wasn't at singapore so i shall not keep disturbing you ..
meii , sorry that i suddenly cried ytd's night .
i just can't stop my emotional . =(
now shall let's those photos do deh talking ..

before headed out

at henderson waves =)

i edited =)

she edited =)

what did i done wrong that you treat me in this way !?

can you tell me than you putting your blame on me ?

you know that is hurtful and i'll break down anytime ?

by not coming back home , will solve those problems ?

or you think divorce is deh best choice of ours ?

i'm tired , i need a break !!

maybe you go your way and i go my own way ..

shall not stoping you doing anything from now !!

I HATE YOU !!

that's all for today ..

nights everyone !!

and wish all father a happy father's day !!

i love my daddy !

2009-06-20T23:55:00.009+08:00

i'm back to update le ..
only upload my babyboy♥ .
cos my cousin haven't send me those photos =x
than lazy to edit i and my meii's photo .
so shall upload other day .. =)
enjoy it , maybe is boring for those videos . =/

will see doctor on 23june ; tuesday . (for my back)
will see private doctor on 24june ; wednesday . (see whether i got infection)
god bless that i didn't go girl's home nor prison .
even i go girl's home or prison , hopes my babyboy♥ still rmb me .
hopes i didn't get infection , even got also not too serious till go hospital .
hopes silly♥ will contact me asap !! {i miss him so badly}

i've updated things that i'll be doing on next week . =)

shall see how is those things going on le ..

good nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-19T00:11:00.012+08:00

i'm back to update le .. =)

today , i went out with my cousins to tampines mall 1 (t1)

reached there already 6+ in deh evening time le ..

walked around to find a restuatant to settle our dinner .

finally , found a restuatant le .. (forgotten deh name)

photos are with my cousin ..

sat than she online . =/

i'll be going out during night time ..

anything can just sms me yeah .. =)

must support below deh website yeah !!

those clothes look so nice !!

below 4 clothes , is my favourite ones !!

but .. can't buy .. =(

http://europhialley.livejournal.com/

Item 8: Oversize dress

Pit to Pit: 22 inch , length: 30 inch

one last piece

Item 10: off-soulderCheckered ribbonate

Pit to Pit: 16 inch , length: 25 inch

SGD21.90

Item 11: lacy babydoll
Pit to Pit: 16 - 19 inch , length: 26 - 28 inch
all pending

Item 25: grey off-shoulder button top

Pit to Pit: 18-21 inch , length: 26 inch

SGD22.90

Item 27: black ruffle dress

Pit to Pit: 17-19 inch , length: 28 inch

SGD23.90

what i've done , i already have done ..

i only can just hopes , i didn't go girls home nor prison . =x

waiting for 23june go polyclinic to see doctor .

see my back spine and my health .. =)

girls , thanks for be there for me !!

what in past , we just forget it and start anew .

{hao mahs ?}

i shall go remove my make-up le ..

than head to sleep le ..

silly♥ , you've been deh whole day didn't sms me nor reply me .

felt so unhappy .. =(

where are you ?

i need you ; need your shoulder !

no mood to say le .. =/

nights everyone !! ^^

Labels : Thanks For Concerning Me , I'm Alright . Hopes I Didn't Go Girls Home Nor Prison =)

2009-06-17T22:34:00.029+08:00

i'm back ..

i didn't go hospital nor see doctor .

i know what will happened next .

as this wasn't deh first time i done this le .

only this time i ate lesser nia . =x

if i really go hospital and they know is bcos i ate medicine commit suicide , i surely will go to court .

and prepare go into girls home or prison . =/

i don't wish to hai my friends when they send me go hospital , they sure will suspect by police .

i rather suffer myself ..

i know i'll get infection inside my lungs .

i don't wish to say what happened that i done that .

i only will say to those i really close with . =)

hopes , i can be strong again .

this time is really a big break down .

all along , thought he was a caring and loving person but now i'm wrong .

idk should i let go of deh marriage or continue it ..

i feel is tiring for me to hold onto it .. =/

idk when i'll break down again ..

this year really are sucks !!

i come through so many ups and downs ..

friends come and go ..

silly♥ i'll rmb those promises . =)

i can't afford to lose you again !

without you , my world was black and white .

with you , my world was full with colours . =)

but ! i still needs other friends !! =D

hopes , we forever won't quarrelled !!

forever together , as close as sisters !!

you know who you're !!

i still you guys around in my life !!!!!

let's those photos do deh talking ..

*15june09*

*17june09*

and not forgetting about my babyboy♥

not forgetting those , concern about my health . =)

thanks for cheering me up , iloveyou guys *

i really enjoy ytd's night !

although , i was suffering those side effects . =(

so xin ku !! ='(

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-16T02:49:00.001+08:00

i'm back again ..

i ate 11 of pain killer for my back pain ..

feel so dizzy and head are so heavy =(

guess 10+ i'll suffer it again ..

this time i feel my lungs are pain =(

my back are fcuking pain !

i feel sleepy le ..

nights and sorry to disappointed you guys . =(

anything sms me .

take care and bye ..

2009-06-16T01:38:00.002+08:00

i had enough of those tiredness .

is time for me to leave this unhappy world .

sorry to disappointed you all .

i ate 9 pain killers for my back .

even didn't die , i also will be inside girls home or prison .

babyboy , mummy wasn't a good mummy and i'll forever loves you .

silly , sorry to hai you and again i disappointed you .

i'm sorry and i'll rmb you inside my heart .

hubby , i choose die is bcos i had enough of you .

i was tired and yet you treat me this way .

i won't forget how you treat me in deh past and now .

now i said is we have divorce ; in our heart {if i really passed away}

hope you can raise him properly .

i tried to make back our marriage but you gave me is attitude and showing me you love her more than me .

i too tired le ..

take care and bye ..

2009-06-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

today again , i go meet them{laughing pill}

they won't stop making me stop laughing ! =D

thanks guys ^^

but still need you* around than will be prefect !

i still need you* around in my life .

can you ?

hopping , later can meet him* .

photos will be tml than update =)

sorry about it . =)

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-14T17:57:00.002+08:00

april baby ;
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and Sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does Work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good Memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look For information. Able to cheer everyone up and/orMake them laugh. Able to motivate oneself andOthers. Understanding. Fun to be around.Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and Traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

silly♥ ; october baby ;
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physicalbeauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angryoften. Treats friends importantly. Brave andfearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt butrecovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest ANDsexiest of them all.

my hubby's ; august baby ;
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. selfconfident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hatesnot being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone."longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld orrestricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.independent. strong willed. a fighter.

it sound quite true yeah ..
laughs*
i feel much better already . =x
how i wish i've money to see doctor .
my back pain is really killing me !
move around also pain , walk , stand , sit and sleep also pain =(
who can help me ?!

2009-06-14T00:30:00.021+08:00

today(13/06) went out to meet my friends . =)
went to vivo .
eat , slack and talk cock with them .
they cheer me up alot =D
{thanks and i love you two ^^}
went home around 10+ , reaching 11pm ..
as my another friend need go work liaos .
so went home with my friend =)
chatted quite alot =)
so long we didn't meet up already .
so miss her =D
now i've no mood to say already . =/

let's those photos do deh talking ..

that's all for today ..

nights everyone !! ^^

2009-06-13T02:37:00.022+08:00

today(12/06) , meet up with stacey =)
thought can meet up at 5+ but due my mil reached home late and she need to bath so i need to wait . =/
sorry girl , i delay deh time =)
7.38pm take mrt to city hall ; suntec to meet aloysius and gavin . (not my babyboy♥)
see them play , than jiu go eat .
kfc was full house , so went to food court to eat =)
ate , chatted and smoked .
see them play acrade again >.<"
than walk to bugis , chatted awhile before go take mrt .
reached home at 11+ , than ate durian . =)
online chat , chat till got people to ask me to update my blog .
so now updating my blog =)
going to sleep soon le .
silly♥ reaching singapore at midnight ! ^^
wanted go fetch him but he don't want ! =(
but nvm nahs , i going out tml too =)
let's photo do deh talking ..

nights everyone ! ^^

thanks for supporting my blog yeah ! =D

please kindly leave a tag before you leaves my blog yeah !

2009-06-11T23:43:00.018+08:00

hmms , ytd went to cwp to find yanling to take baby things .

end up , didn't take as he said was too heavy liaos .

so he delivery those things to my house downstair =)

walked around at pasa malam .

bought one maggie , one tin of pringles and one big packet of mamee monster and one packet of maggie to eat when reached home .

reached home , he show a face . =/

asked me to make babyboy♥ to sleep .

don't he know , my hand was hurt ?

don't he know , my back was so painful still ?

why he just don't understand me ?

i wish i can work SOON but my back was pain till sometimes i can't get up .

now , i sit down than i stand up . you can see my back still bending .. =(

REALLY VERY PAIN , OKAYS !

can understand me more ! =(

sometimes , i really feel just go than don't come back anymore !

but i can't bear with it .. =/

i really wish we can start all over again but haish ..

Labels : 1 more day , he'll be back ! ^^

2009-06-10T20:12:00.007+08:00

hmms , i'm back to update liaos =D

just now went coffeeshop to eat , to celebrate my fil birthday =)

"Happy Birthday To You" ^^

this few days , my mood was like ~~fcuk~~ !

keep vent my anger on my babyboy♥ . =(
i shouted at him and even beat him >.<"

simply i just can't control my temper !

feel so fed up nowadays !

but he still cheer me up whenever i'm angry or upset !

babyboy♥ i'm sorry ! and thanks for cheering mummy !!

iloveyou babyboy♥ !

you're mummy's everything !! ^^

today can't manage to go interview . =(

just bcos i no money to buy cover shoe . ='(

my mood was down again .

don't why too . =/

silly♥ , i need you alot !!

when you able to lend me your shoulder to lean on ?

anyway , i'll be brave again . =)

hopes i can happy again , soon !

i need jobs !!

part-time , don't need experience !!

sales line . {who can help me ?}

below is a video that i playing with him =)

that's all for today . =)

2009-06-09T22:57:00.009+08:00

today meet up with stacey .

tgt with my babyboy♥ .

so tiring to bring him go out lors >.<"

went home around 5+ ..

i realise i can't be a good mummy ! =(

i feel so fed up now !

my hand so pain ! ='(

nobody care ..

how i wish you were beside me now ! =x

4 more days you'll be back !

i'm so looking forward ! ^^

tml i'll be going to interview , for selling ice-cream .

BUT !

i've no cover shoe !

how how how ????? =(

Labels : 12days at taiwan , 4 days you'll be back ! ^^

2009-06-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

i'm back to update .
was finally i can update , a short update =)
cos my babyboy♥ just don't want to sleep . x(
make him sleep , he sleep than put down his baby cot he awake . =(
so carried him again to make him sleep , again deh thing happened . >.<
so third time , make him sleep than i put onto my bed to make him sound asleep first .
than put him into his bed . =D
yes , he sleep le .
than i can update my blog .
today , didn't go out .
take care him was my job for everdays .
only can go out during evening time and weekends .
cos got pil to take care ^^
now i need to go sleep liaos .
my panda eyes are getting darker ! =(
happy that silly♥ was coming back this saturday !! ^^
i need you so much now !
how i wish you can appear infront of me now !! =x
anyway , shall end here .
take care everyone yeah ! ^^

Labels : 12th days you at taiwan , 4 days you'll be back ! ^^

2009-06-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

i need to say something before having more mistaken coming ! =)
silly♥ just my friend only !!!!!
he wasn't my boyfriend non my hubby !!!!!
i just simply loving him nia .
he is a good guy !!!!!
so i don't wish to spoilt his name !!!!!
he changed my life , my character and everything .
that's why i love him so much !!!
i need him loads !!!
maybe i used with him around in my life already . =x
so STOP SAYING WE'RE COUPLE !!!!!

2009-06-07T21:05:00.016+08:00

outside his house

at mst station

deh price of buying those 3 stuff =/

bought those stuff and recieve this
my new shoe & new sunglass

shoe is my mil bought for me & sunglass is my hubby's uncle gave me for free . =)

reached home around 10+in deh morning .

thought can rest awhile than go expo but in deh end didn't go . =(

cos need go slim lim square to buy wire . =/

my mood was so shag , sleepy & walk with a blur vision . =(

went tgt with my mil and babyboy♥ .

cab over , reached and keep finding my hubby's cousin .

saw him yet can't rmb him .

finally found him , ask him for wire .

he charge for free =)

chatted awhile , went bugis street find my hubby's uncle .

not at shop , went to OG buy things .

see baby pram ..

so expensive =(

going bought him one when get baby bonus . =/

BUT ! CONFIRM WILL PAY HIM BACK HIS MONEY !!!!!

i going find a job only work during weekends , so i don't need headache when nobody's taking care babyboy♥ . =)

so anyone got jobs that only work during weekends or evening time for everyday ?

i need earn money le !!!

although my wish is to be a good taitai staying at home but i realise i can't . ='(

need job to earn money to pay bills and support my babyboy♥ !

so do support me yeah ! =D

got jobs only work at home or only work during weekends or evening time , do tag at my blog !

thanks =)

now i realise , i no money i've no mood to go out

even got people treat me , i also feels not good to it =(

let's said , last night things .

met simon {gan-kor} at amk than he told me he going play lan , play pool and sing k .

i was like O.O omg ! so boring .

than ring vincent up , met him at sembawang .

ate kfc with a couple , bought water than go his friend house .

they play mahjong while i watching >.<

than met ah wei at sembawang , his friend drive .

drive us go chinatown deh thai disco .

drink drank but NO DRUNK !

cos i only drink 3 or 4 cups of mixture nia .

feel nothing about it . =/

i emo~ing for awhile cos i think about those memories i with {C} at pub .

and i saw someone familiar , is my hubby's friend's girlf .

{cos he said she is his girlf}

after drinking , went near-by deh coffeeshop to eat .

but i didn't eat as i no money liaos .

bear with deh hungry . =/

so went to his house .

soon he fell asleep =.=

keep waking him up but i failed .

finally he woke up at 8.30am !!!

thought can go back rest but haish !

can't .. =(

{can't say why cos is something i can't say unless you know deh whole story of mine}

than going to expo but in deh end , my sil don't want to go .

she need go malaysia . =/

so i stayed at home .

reached home at 2+ pm , slept at 3+ .

woke up at 7+ bcos of someone's at outside "barking" .

so stay awhile till now . =)

shall end here , so long deh post for today >.<

take care everyone yeah ! ^^

Labels : 10th days you at taiwan ; 6 days you'll reach singapore ^^

2009-06-06T00:51:00.020+08:00

back to update my blog le . =)

edited some photos .

changed my blog skin =)

still can't view my post . =(

got anyone want jio me out ?

I'M BORED !!!!!

SHALL END IT AT HERE .

TAKE CARE EVERYONE YEAH ~

Labels : 9th days you at taiwan . =/

2009-06-04T19:28:00.002+08:00

thought today i post deh post will be damn boring but not ! =)
why ?
cos silly called me !!!!! ^^
was like finally he called me le . =D
i miss you silly !!!!!
how i wish i can cheer you up like before but ..
nvm nahs .. =)
you still can be happy again deh , right =)
this few days , keep on thinking deh past i & my "the beloved ladies" have . =x
so miss them !!!!! =)
keep thinking last year , when i was pregnant i go her bbq . =x
but also no use , already past le ..
now more concern will be F-U-T-U-R-E !!!!! =)
i don't think i'll have a good future . =(
always stuck at here , slacking with my lappy & friends . =(
i wish i can work but i really don't have deh mood to work .
- idk why too . is it i too lazy ? or play not enough ?
seriously , i miss those "the beloved ladies" ! =x
{J} , {W} , {P} , {G} & {A} .
& i miss {C} too ! =)
how i wish we were like before , but i know i am dreaming nahs . >.<
hopes , can meet up to chit-chat but NOT quarrelling !!!!!
but i know , i dreaming again nahs . =/
*slap face*
not friends le , still want to meet up . =/
take care alright , i miss you guys so much !!!!!
silly told me that he'll be back on 13june ^^
i'll looking forward to deh day you're back !!
i going to hug you tightly !!!!! =x
first call you called me was on 28may ; 1.40pm , second call you called was on 03june ; 06.06pm & third call you called me was on 03june ; 06.16pm .
third call he called me cos i sms-ed him , he said sms very expensive so he use call to tell me >.<
i miss you so badly now !!!!!
i'm happy to hear your voice . =D
you're so tough inside deh army life . ='(
how i wish i know you earlier , so you don't need go sign on ? o.o
anyway , wait for you to return to singapore !!!!! =)
take care everyone yeah !! ^^

Labels : 7th days you at taiwan , coming back on 13june .