now i realise that i & sweetheart have e same thinking . both of us want to be alone to think , both of us deh mind are empty .
i really feel like divorce with him .
i'm totally was shag ! my feelings to him was slowly fade-ing , just want be to alone now .
maybe i can say i fall in love a guy ? just only want together with him only ?
i know you all will say i'm a hongster . yups , i admit i'm a hongster !
a girl that want a true love , a guy truly love me with his 100% heart , truly concern me & pamper me !
+ i dont know what's my hubby thinking now ! quarrel with her yet still can contact her & meet her ?
i'm tired , getting more & more tired le !
i with him , i cant see my happiness . i cant feel e happiness together with him !
i really feel like asking him , can i be alone ? all alone by myself .
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to gan-baby :
dont go drink le lahs . is bad for your health ! anything can just sms me .
i can be a good listener if you need someone to hear you saying your problems !
promise me , dont go drink le okays ? takecares . (:
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to gan-dear :
i hope we can meet up during new year eve ! dont care that slut* hao mahs ?
i just want to count down together with you . (:
waiting for you to online . miss & love you . :D
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to beloved sweetheart :
5 more days to our SFL 1 year anniversary ! i''m so looking forward on that day ! ^^
jia you for you & your hubby things ! :D
anything got me this crazy sweetheart around with you !
i damn miss you & love you lots ! ^^ meet-up soon yeah ~
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count down-ing to 2009 !
4days to 2009 ! 31dec i wont be online-ing + wont be at home bahs .
should be at outside tonning bahs . (:
i went out at 3+ , went out together with my mil & baby gavin .
my mil change money for me .
after that , i train-ed to tpy . rush to OCBC bank to let e staffs to put e stamp on e baby bonus form . after have done , i cabbed down to MCYS but rushed there already close le .
shag ~
soon i cabbed again , to somerset . to meet my gan-ahma & her gan-mei(my sweetie mei) .
together went to cine , meet up with jincai & gavin .
*forogtten what happened on e centre*
saw my gan-didi & his friends at plaza sing .
my gan-didi told me that he like her (my sweetie mei) , asked me to ask her for number .
than my gan-didi & his friend (nick) keep following us .
so got me , adelene(ahma) , jun yin(sweetie mei) , jin cai , gavin , youyang(didi) , nick , 3 couples which i dont know + 3 guys which we dont know deh .
25dec'08
we all e way stay at cine , than youyang go spray jun yin hair . lucky i didnt kena ! ^^
so we from cine walk to parklane to slack than guowei jiu say go cathy to slack . so we all went .
at there slack till 5+ , they all wanted to go home but youyang dont give her (sweetie mei) back her jacket . so i pei her together with nick & youyang .
soon gavin , guowei & 1 guy i dont know rescure us from them cos they are like drunk . keep disturbing her .
soon we all run to ps to take mrt . youyang called her 3 times & e 3 times was i answer deh .
i keep saying we all at toilet , different storey deh toilet . last call he called , i cant take it le i say him & scolded him you very fan lehs , "CCB" .
than i train-ed together with jun yin . train-ed till dont know where , i go another side of mrt to take mrt .
i reached home at 7.10am . bath-ed , at 8+ cai sleep .
Merry Christmas To You All !
Happy Birthday To My Gan-Baby & My Real Daddy !
*sorry for e late wishes*
Labels : Really Have Enjoyed With You All Guys !
today is his 3rd month !
times flies , so fast is his 3rd month le . :D
today went to polyclinic , he need to injection . )x
inject those F.O.C injection .
so worry he will have fever ! :x
funny is his weight seems drop .
- is it ? i also dont know . )'x
next month need to injection again .
- zzz ~
today i'm so "strong" !
alone carry big bag , a bag to put his milk bottle & a bag to carry him infront of my chest .
he was "very light" nors !
i almost fainted , didn't eat e whole morning + afternoon .
soon reached home , busy go photo copy his documents for e banking things to get baby bonus .
than went to tpy central to verify e thing , to let them to put stamp .
but need his sign than can put e stamp .
- zzz ~ waste my trip to there .
- so tiring today ! ~
so went go buy bubble tea to drink if not i really can faint le .
bus-ed home , lie on bed awhile cai online .
until now i still havent eat , now i going to eat le .
finish my online-ing , i just put my "mask" & off to sleep .
tml is my busy day too !
*i wont be online-ing tml e whole day , i'll be at outside*
update on either 25/26 night , depend on my tiredness . (:
Merry Christmas To My Readers + Happy Birthday To My Beloved Father !
*iloveyou daddy !*
feel there's isn't thing for me to update about deh .
my boy have been increasing his weight .
now his weight was 7.4kg le .
guess my weight how much ?
- it was 48.8kg .
need slim more 4.8kg than jiu is my standard weight le ! ^^
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ytd i asked my laogong that what if one day i say i want divorce , what you going to do .
now than replied me , said :'' why u will say u if one day u say wan to divorce?because of wad d gal?"
i replied :"don't know ?"
now i thinking of if divorce is better for me bahs , he wasn't e guy i wanted .
but now i got gavin le , need to think for him .
- is it that i dont like him le ? or with e fox spirit ? i ownself also dont know about it . )x
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now is celebration for my 18th birthday on 19april2009 !
where should i celebrate it ?
open chalet or just bbq only ?
i sure i want to go pub drink !
- heehees * :D
i wish i can stop smoking !
smoking only will cause my wallet a big hole , my body will become more even weaker .
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now countdowning for our SFL 1 year anniversary !
our anniversary was on 2nd of jan !
i wish my wishlist can be done ! ^^
i love you sweetheart !
SFL = Sweetheart For Life !!
Labels : I wasn't A Good Girl Of Yours .
- kena say by my cousin's mother .
she dont know what have happen to me in this family than jiu anyhow say me .
- nb , cb .
i guess i wont be going next year deh chalet .
if going , i also wont be staying over-night at there .
- so sucks ! ~
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now i need to say is :
my beloved sweetheart wasnt with him , ( wasnt like him)
is he e one like her . :x
but jiayou ! i'll be there for you whenever you needs me ! ( but not during e midnight )
he will kill me ? laughs ~
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now i'm headache of opening chalet/just bbq ?
clubbing , i sure will go ! so anybody will jio me go ?
- laughs ~
give me comment about it !
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so miss those days i & my laogong deh everydays we spend together ! ~
but miss also no use , already no longer e same le . )'x
- sad ! ~
Labels : I Love You LaoGong ! ~
- nice ?
once i post finish this post i jiu go bath & off i go to chalet le .
- my family open deh .
i & my gan-hubby just only gans nia .
- no longer loving him but seeing them so close i still very sad sad ~
he now like my very close friend .
my very close friend now damn sad cos of her husband .
- see her cried ytd night , my heart gone cold & pain .
- seeing her suffering make me feel like scolding her husband !<p>
beloved sweetheart ;
i know you're suffering now but now you got him beside you le .
so please dont be so sad & cry le .
your beloved sweetheart wasnt that strong , can keep seeing you keep on crying ! i will be there for you but now he beside you i jiu fang xin le . be more happy hao mahs ? anything msg me , iloveyou ~
gan-hubby ;
i dont know you whether still got view my blog anot . but i just telling you , please take good care of her ! i trying my best to forget you le . i hope you're e guy that treat her very good & dont ever hurt her ! i sure wont forgive you & let you go deh ! she's my one & only sweetheart i ever have in my life ! if you didnt treat her good i'll kill you !
laogong ;
i dont know about you ! i dont know you truly love me anot sia . i truly love you deh ! i cant afford to lose you ! i dont know want to divorce with you anot sia . i hope we can last long till we die ! iloveyou !
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