haish ~
1 year + ago , i & her quarrel . not friend anymore .
1 year + later , we quarrel again .
now we wasnt sweetheart le .
cos of e stupid $10 , make me feel like quarrelling with her .
again i dont have any close friend le .
really is true that i cant close with a person if not i & that person will buey gum .
starting i dont believe it but now i believe it le .
want to spam jiu spam bahs , i'm tired to care so much things le .
really no mood to care le .
too many things come within in 1mth !
sooooooooooooooo tiring ~
hmms , dont know .
i feel my beloved sweetheart wasn't that close with me le . )'x
she like avoiding away from me .
she changed blog also didnt tell me . )'x
maybe i & her deh friendship end cos of money ?!
- haish ~
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you dare jiu say infront of me !
dont say behind in my blog !
i know where you stay , i know people in that area too !
so what i got husband than got boyf ?
you dont know e whole story jiu dont anyhow say lahs hor !
+ NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY BOYF !
SO PLEASE MIND YOUR WORDS !
rice can anyhow eat but words cant anyhow say hors !
nb cb ~
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beloved sweetheart ,
idk what's wrong with our SFL le .
is it really end le mahs ?
just cause of e $10 ?
is yes than i have no words to say le . )'x
happy cny to you !
take good care of yourself !
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i trying my best to holding on our marriage le ,
he still want contact her ?
i guess divorce is e better way for us bahs .
i wont give you e 2nd chance le .
i holding on it also no use ,
you still want contact with her .
if you still want our marriage carry on than jiu STOP contact with her le !
if not , sorry our marriage THE END !!
hmms , tml is cny le . :s
PLEASE DON'T ASK ME FOR ANG BAO ! :x
i only give to my relatives nia !!
i'll update pics tml .
now busy watching tv for count down .
happy chinese new year to you all !! :D
nowadays , my mood wasn't good cos of my hubby .
+ recently happened deh things !
i simply hate staying at their house ! need to see their face everyday ! sucks ~
so sad that i & nick become friends but nvm lahs , i & him no future deh .
good that you've new gf le , once after we break off you jiu have gf .
- really is a hongster ~
now i going to start my new life very soon .
don't want to care so much le , just care about my ownself & baby gavin !
sorry to let you guys to worry about me ! i'm alright now le . :D
i love you guys loads ! muacks ~
150109
*060109 ; went to malaysia with my hubby
loves sucking his fingers
simply loves laughing ~
love to do this pattern when he is drinking milk
- drink 200ml every 2-3hrs
- love to sucking his finger
- able put both hand together
- love talking his baby language
- smile/laugh easily when got people play/talk with him
- trying put his hand on e bottle *unable to hold it*
- loves to play alot
- drip saliva
- loves watching tv
- w/o his "tutu" & "smelly" he cant sleep
- trying to flip but still unable
- love people to swing him to asleep
- will open his mouth wide whenever he was sleep
- hate noisy place & e place got light
- love to listen to people talking , even want to sleep he still want to listen to it
STILL WANT SELL IT TO ME , WTF !
i know i wasn't a good gf , good wife & a good mother !
i totally is very SHI BAI ! )x
why world treat me like this ?!
when i can have a good husband + in laws ??
when i've a good future ??
i can't see my future !!!!!!
soooooooooo tired to live in this world !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i go & die ?
no point staying in this fcuking world !!!!!
I HATE MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today went to marsilling with my beloved sweetheart to collect my 3 tops , 1 necklance & 2 bags .
she sell deh bags WASN'T IN A GOOD CONDITION ! wtf ~
I WANT BACK MY $29 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
soon after collect it , we went to bugis shopping .
yay ~ shopping time ~ damn long didnt shopping le ! :D
hmms , bought 2 tops , 1 short & 1 high heel .
spend $127.90 today for those stuffs !
spend $6.15 on mac , $2 on water .
alot right ! :x
left $150 , 100 for phone bill , 50 for another blogshop stuffs .
hope she wont bluff my money ! :x
will update photos once i've finished bathing !
wait for it oh ~ lols !
i'll divorce once e time is right ! )'x
i with you only have e sad feeling , no happy feeling .
i'm totally are dead ! really is dead !!!!!
nobody know how i feels & thinking . sadded ~
give up on me & go back to her side !
i'm so sorry to you !!!!!
today went injection , is my baby not me (of cos) .
today damn moody ! dont know why too ~
my feeling for him have fade le , keep e marriage just for nothing .
i holding onto it was a very tiring thing !
just feel like giving up on this marriage le , no longer that strong le ..
day by day , my feeling for him fade .
thanks for asking me not to be moody but i just cant stop it ! )'x
i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired on this marriage le !
I WANT TO GIVE UP ! CAN I ?!
whenever i see e wedding photo , i would feel like crying .
but i bear with it cos i dont want they keep asking me question !
it was so fan okays !
home is better than here !
so cold staying at his house ~
at least my family would have e warmth , can give me secure .
I MISS MY FAMILY ! ~~
here only have , moody feeling .
I WANT TO GO BACK HOME !
CAN I ?
i don't have any mood to update my post ! :x
tml i'm bringing my son;gavin to polyclinic to have his injection .
- hope i'm alright with it ~
hopefully tml can update again bahs .
so sick to stay at home ! hate to see her around ~
so got anybody can intro me job to do ?
fcuking miss my past !
stay single , not much stress & can dont need to work .
now wei le my laogong , erzi i need to work . shag ~
i WON'T TIONGXIM to you when you DIDN'T TIONGXIM to me !
so tiring that i fu chu so much & i didnt get any of it back .
i know i fu chu jiu dont think of it will come back but haish ~
i guess my wishes for birthday have gone case le , wont come true le .
once before he* make me laugh till like i in e heaven but yet cos of her you changed le .
say le alot of words to hurt me ! )'x
say "saw me just treat me as a strangers , wont contact me anymore le , have deleted my email from your msn le , wont see our blog le ."
like that like i have hurt him loads ! )'x
but i also cant blame her ! cos wasnt her fault to do this !
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to ah de:
you say those words are meant to hurt me mahs ? i know i very close to her but you need to do this to me mahs ?! since you've decide to do this than i have no words to say le . i only can say is takecares & i always rmb you as my friend !
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to all e readers !
now i'm okays ! although i've stress but i still can take it . if cant just complaining in my blog lors . laughs ~ this is what i make blog for ! so when i complaining , you all those hate me just simply fcuk off ! this is my blog ! what i want to say is MY PROBLEM NOT YOURS okays !
i really damn hate that cb bitch ! her big name was SALLY ! she stay at tpy which near by to my laogong house ! she really dont want face , want together with a guy that is married & have a child le ! cb itchy right , want guys fcuk with right , i got ALOT ! i can intro them to you ! only see you can tahan anot nia !
dont want to say her liaos , say her make my mood moody .
dont ever let me see in e streets ! i sure will make you no face arhs .
laughs ~ jk only ! i also dont know what i'll do when i saw her in e streets !
nights readers ! take cares . :D
- CAN'T TAKE CARE OF MY SON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- CAN'T SEE HIM OFTEN LIKE PAST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- I & MY HUBBY HAVE E DIFFERENT THINKING !!!
- CAN'T COMMUNICATE !!!!!
- CAN'T BE AS HEATHLY AS IN THE PAST !!!!!!!!!!
- HAVE SO MUCH OF STRESS !!!!!
- AVOID ALL THE STRESS I HAVE !!!!!
again i've so much stress le . why do people have stress ?
no stress , e world will be prefect le .
now i dont know how to communicate with my hubby sia ..
we two have e different thinking .
so tiring ~
than i have more time on going out . laughs ~
i guess i need more time to relax myself to calm down !
again my stress are back ! haish ~
why so world have stress ? no stress , world confirm is perfect !
i'm back to post my blog le ...
i so miss of my gan hubby (ah de) !miss those times we been together !
i know you dont wish to contact us le ! i was damn sad for everythings you've told me !
i really dont wish you & her become like that ! PLEASE ! ~
you only make me feel more even sad NOT angry OKAYS ! i WANT you to be happy !
if really dont wish to contact us than nvm bahs , just take good care of yourself ! anything got me this crazy friend ! D: JIA YOU FOR IT !!
today meet up with my beloved sweetheart . went to tpy central deh mac to eat our lunch & headed back to my hubby's house .
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i really dont wish my babyboy to let his nanny to takecares ! you all is discuss le cai tell me . what discuss with me ?!
i say "NO" yet she say what give her take care lahs , let me have a good rest . than i wont have bad thinking .
NO lors , i didnt do anything cai will anyhow thinks nors . what you know ? snatch him away from me ?
now he dont even know who am i lors . treat me like a stranger le . )'x
like that i rather i told police i commit suicide & headed to girls home/jail . no point of staying at home .
I HATE YOU !
bcos of you , i get scolding from my families . they thought what , i only want go out dont want care about my son ! i can say NO !
not i dont want to takecares is THEY keep on saying i dont know . abit of crying jiu so work up . NOT i dont know OKAYS !
so what i go counselling ?! got use mehs ? can solve my problems ?
NO LORS ! still need myself to overcome all e problems nors . TMD!
only my piggybaby & beloved sweetheart + my family + some of my friends knows how i feels ! others jiu say "i know lahs , is just i dont know how to say only " .
i say is SHIT LORS ! know how i feels . GO AND DIE LAHS !
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i wish we(i & my laogong) can overcome all e problems we have ! but is difficult ! cos we have different thinking ! this only will make things difficult to solve !
your thinking is mature & yet i wasnt . but i'll slowly change my thinking as year by year i'll grow up ! NOT grow younger !
i only can say our marriage wont last long . thinking , we dont communicate , keep everythings to ourself than wait e days we cant take it & just shout out .
i'm tired of this marriage ! w/o have same thinking & communicate we cant last long . is was too difficult to continue it !
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thanks everybody for so concerning me ! so happy to see that i still got friends around me to concern me .
i PROMISE i WONT do silly & stupid things le ! only makes my health getting weaker nia .
i going to find job to do le . so boring to stay at home nowadays ! all need money !
1 jan`2009
1+ in e afternoon took cab with my sister & mil down to tan tock seng hospital . cos i ate 28 panadols today in e 2+ am . 4+ went to sleep . 11+ was awake by mil cos my sister came see me . so i was admit to hospital straight away . i at inside obversation ward till very long . was damn cold , hungry & xin ku ! x:was at e ward around 5+ i think , wasn't allow to eat till 7+ . than saw my father , fil & my son came into e ward . soon is adelene , junyin , youyang , jincai , erica & erina came visit me . & erica gave me a balloon flower .
- thanks ! :D
2 jan`2009
didnt sleep well . only slept for total 6hrs ? 1+ in e afternoon my laogong & his family visited , they bring food for me to eat too .
- thanks alot ~
they also bring my clothes & dispoal panties for me too . soon 2+ they went go kopitiam eat their lunch . than my brother , his wife & their daughter , my sister , adelene , gavin & aloysius came visited me . 4pm i was allow to go out as have taken out my drip le . was all along talking to my friends at outside e ward . till 5+ i went back to my bed to eat my dinner . 5+ his family went back home , went go buy water . with my laogong , junyin & youyang than headed back to my ward . 6+ erica came , till 7.45pm went down with her & e couple & my laogong . soon my laogong went home .
- say he sians ?
we waited chu lei to come as she went to reborn her hair . after we bought our dinner they went back le . after eating , they send me back to my ward . till 10.15pm , celestine & julia came . sit till 12am , e tanglin's police came to take my sentence . starting i said i commit suicide but in e end i said wasnt cos i dont wish to stay in e girls home/jail . 12.20am they went back as i feel damn tired . keep on yawning ~
3 jan`2008
was awake up at 7.45am by e noise gaven by e nurse . 11+ e hospital deh "counsellor" came talk to me .
- so boring ~
till 12+ my father came , 1.35pm he went back . so went to sleep , till 4+ was awake my laogong . came together with gavin & his parent . ate they bring deh food than headed to kopitiam to have my ice-kachang . went with my laogong & fil smoking . chat-ed with him for awhile . than went back to ward . till 7.45pm they went home . for him jiu is , went to malaysia to ask about e renting house in malaysia . cos he wanted to go there to stay ?
4 jan`2009
didnt sleep well . cos my bed beside keep on crying non-stop + is getting louder ! was awake at 7+ in e morning . nobody visited me today . till 1+ my fil came into hospital to fetch me home .
*sorry to my beloved friends ! i know i'm silly & stupid to do this !
i promise i wont do it again le ! although i didnt regret but i wont do it again le !
i do this cos i wanted to commit suicide but in e end didnt sucess .
cos of i cant take it he & that cb so i done that . )x
happy new year to everyone ! i pass my new year in e hospital .
- sad-ed !
*anything i'll update in smses*
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