i'm back to update my blog le .
hmms , ytd went kkh to accomany stacey check up .
i also bring my son along too .
so troublesome to bring him out with e pram .
*{thanks for helping with it}*
to Drop By :
which of your eyes see i flirt with guys ?!
you dont know me , you like that say me ? {wtf}
anyway , they all just my gans NOT who okays !
you want spam jiu spam dont anyhow say my friends okays !
i dont give a damn .
spam till you like .
if can just simply fcuk off !
*[Edited]*
i'm back again to update le .
too bored le , so come back to update . :D
hmms , i guess i need to change my character & life soon .
not for anyone , is for myself .
if i didnt change , i guess i wont have any friends left le . )'x
now i need to find a job ; ASAP !
{who say help me ? i dont wish finding by myself}
now my back was pain again , was worse than before le . {sadded}
i need go see doctor ! {hopefully nothing's wrong with it}
& ITS REAL NOT ANY EXCUSES !
i see a changes at my hubby behaviour .
{is it good for me ? or worse ?}
i really needs him alot ! {i really do}
if she be back as my sweetheart , will be prefect ! {can mahs ?}
i miss you joanne !
his sister took back her laptop on 22feb .
so i cant upload pictures le .
let's me update my beloved baby gavin things . :DDD
- drinks 240ml milk{per 1-3hrs} drinks 240ml with cereal{per 3-4hrs}
- able to flip over .
- loves sucking his finger/hand .
- loves to play with his saliva
- loves sitting down than lying down
- loves to laughs whenever got people play with him/dont have
- loves to take out his "tu tu" to play with it
- loves to look around
- loves to watch tv
- talk his baby language
- burp very slowly
- loves to "yao" his head
- rub his eyes when he want to sleep
- putting his hand on bottle , still enable to hold it
*unable to connect my cable to my com*
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my hubby's sister didnt took back e laptop ! ^^ {so happy}
today , whole day was at home . {so boring}
luckily my son didnt fall sick if not i dont know what to do . {useless mummy}
now already 1.31am le , i still havent sleep yet .
not long ago , bathed & ate mac .
my hubby till now still wasnt at home . {so shag}
sunday i'm going to shermin's baby precious full month . {curious to see her babygirl}
hopefully my son;gavin can go along with me . {god bless me}
than i know more young mummies at there & can exchange points . {happy}
hmms , hopefully saturday can go pub !
*{dont tell you all whom i going with}* *bleahs~*
i guess i now should go sleep le . {1.35am}
you dare to do , dont dare to say .
what a man are you ?!
or you is an ah gua ? {laughs}
once before i stead with him , you timer me . {nvm}
but now you ask her for number & yet say is our fault . {nb}
*{dont say you le , no medicine to cure you !}*
on 160209 i accompany candy to malaysia .
something happened . {dont wish to mention about it}
that was a past le . {cheer up girl}
so i went to ah na house to find my hubby .
slack , talk cock , use laptop , walked around his house .
on 170209 went to songka with celestine .
is her's friend deh ah gong passed away . {which make i think of my mother}
*{only close to me than know what i mean think of my mother}*
11+ went back , went to ah na house .
saw them painting e door gate .
so boring at there .
3+ went back tgt with my hubby . {all e way didnt talk much}
on 180209 is adelene birthday .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ; my beloved ahma ! :DD
sorry that didnt meet you !
my son deh temp is hot hot deh , like fever but didnt .
hopefully he didnt have fever !
*{sorry that mummy didnt take good care of you !}*
i love you gavin poon kok ann ! ^^
tml onwards , i cant so often update my blog le .
due to need to return laptop to my hubby's sister . {sadded}
so anything can msg me/leave a msg in my tagbox . :DD
to you*
just follow your heart ,
i dont wish to see you so suffering !
i know you're sufering but just jia you ! ^^
if can i'll be there for you whenever you needs me !
in my heart , i simply cant forget you !
just jia you , you can do it deh ! :DD
take good care of yourself !
i miss you girl ~
at outside of tai disco
at mos buglar
*140209*
later i'm meeting celestine , chris , jason(my ex) & feng at bugis .
this year my valentine day are so sucks can !
he(my laogong) didnt jio me out . >.<>
anything can just msg me .
ENJOY EVERYONE ! ^^
*110209*
- she edited it , thanks anyway .
- put powder on his face
- so sad ~
today actually going to my mother's sister's daughter's child's man yue deh but in e end i didnt go .
firstly is cos of my father go , secondly is no much mood to go out .
today is joanne & winnie deh 1 year of being sweetie baobei .
when i think back , i & joanne didnt celebrate our 1 year of SFL .
thought of 1yr & 1mth celebrate deh , but in e end we wasnt sweetheart + friend .
- haish ~
i guess i monday will go try my luck of searching jobs .
HOPE I HAVE THE LUCK TO WORK !
- wish me good luck bahs . :)
to her*
i seems like is disturbing her life now .
is it ?
when she say cannot be she meet me as now i am not your sweetheart + friend .
when i saw that i totally was sadded .
- haish ~
again ytd i cried le .
to laogong !
i & you seems like friends .
is it you contact her back le ?
w/o you i totally was lost !
whenever i needs you , you wasn't beside me .
what's wrong with you le ?
am i still your wife ?
*overdue photos*
*040209*
today i went to interview job .
1 at cwp & 3-4 at far east .
HOPE I CAN WORK !
i'm so tired everything ~
really need to learn to be alone whenver i needs someone to care for me .
to her*
i really needs you alot !
but now you close with her than me le .
once again i cried le .
my heart broke le .
he quarrelled with his mum & leave e house .
do i exist ?
seems like i doesn't exist in this house .
sms you , you never reply me .
what am i to you in your heart ?
a toy ?
replacement ?
she is a mother of 2 child & yet she want snatch my hubby away ?
idk what to do now .
divorce ? or continue ?
I NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE ME & CARE FOR ME !
DO YOU KNOW THAT ?!
w/o them i totally was lost in e way .
can someone guide me out of e maze ?
to laogong*
i still love you but can you treat me as your wife ?
like i'm a human that wasn't exist in this world .
- so tiring ~
i cant feel e happiness when i with you .
you rather with friends/her* than with me .
you making me feel damn fcuking TIRED !!!!!
DO YOU KNOW THAT ?!
Labels : I'm Lost In The Way Out Of The Maze !
i guess i should start my life new le .
not bcos of her !
- i dont feel worth it to change cos of her . :x
everyday , i missing her .
cry bcos of her , everyday & nights .
once again my hubby wasn't beside whenever i needs him !
i guess i need to learn to be alone whenever i needs somebody !!!!!
whenever i was sad , nobody be there for me .
whenever they were sad , i was there for them .
haish ~
forget it le , as what i said friend dont count everything .
maybe i let go e friendship will be better for me ?
- seeing her happy , i also happy le . (:
if i've friends in malaysia jiu hao , leave singapore & go to malaysia to hide for awhile .
now , idk how to face all e problems all i've !
really have too much problems infront of me !
tml i'm going find job le , wish me good luck bahs . (:
i wont be that childish like past le , spend wisely , think carefully what i want .
+ i wont be so happy in e past le .
i guess i'll wont make you all so happy & keep laughing all e way .
friends to me now is like nothing ?
to me now , i also dont know .
i only want to make myself have a good health & be a good mummy of gavin poon !
Labels : Learning To Be Alone Whenever There's Nobody Be There For Me !
suddenly i so miss my hubby now !
yet he wasnt at home now . )'x
about i & her things , i guess i'll use time to change myself .
i not trust in friendship le . :x
now i only want to be a good mummy of gavin poon !
work i think ...
i also dont know .
i'm so lost now .
my close friend cos of those things dont wish to make friend with me .
hubby wasn't by my side whenever i need him .
only my gan-bibi be there for me .
BUT i NOT his girlf !
i told him not to love me , i still have a hubby .
unless i have divorce with him le .
currently , i do still loves my hubby !
wei le my baby , i hold onto this marriage !
but still i still will cry during e nights , even post a post i also will cry .
past she would be there for me but now ..
no more le .
unless i changed she cai think want be friend with me . )'x
my life changed again .
change to a world that i totally was lost .
why world need money ?
cos of money , many people quarrelled . ):
to her*
i will be using time to make myself change ,
idk will change into what .
take cares & rest well .
i still be there for you whenever you needs me !! :D
for money , i admit i do spend alot .
i didnt say i didnt think of my son .
spend money is e way i pamper myself or even vent my anger onto it .
if you all were in my shoes , you all will know .
i guess i wont be so often contact you all le , if not again cos of something quarrel than wasnt friend .
i tired of everything i've !!
people only blame me for something but you all got think of my feeling ?
i got mother gave birth me .
i do have flesh & blood , which means i very mind every words & actions you all do on me !
will led me have depression & even go hurt my own body to leave this stupid world !
i can tell you all is i do really have depression !
everyday cries , no much mood in eating , very moody , vent anger easily .
you all sure wont believe cos i in you eyes is love spending money , useless , unmature & more ..
only my son would make me smiled whenever i was sad .
i love my son alot !
i cant dont have my son + i cant dont see my son !
i need him alot in my life !
suddenly i miss her alot !
but cos of money problem & my character , she don't wish to contact with me .
why will happen like this le ?
- crying away ~
my hubby wasn't my side , he went over to his friend house .
everytime i need him , he wasn't beside me . )'x
who will be e person to love me & concern me ?
love a person are so tiring ~
r/s & f/s wasn't that good le , i need e person he & she wasn't by my side .
i still love my hubby alot & i damn miss my beloved sweetheart !
DO ANYONE KNOW THAT ?
GOT ANYONE WILL TRULY CONCERN ME ?
I'M A USELESS GIRL , TO EVERYONE EYES !
no mood to continue le ..
just feel like being alone-ing now , only i can do is crying ..
r/s & f/s hurts me alot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so sorry to my beloved friends !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
is e song for i & joanne deh "sad" song .
a memory song for us , both of us would listen to this to cry with .
now cos of alot of things happened , we wasn't friend le .
sad ~
so miss her ..
she say i wasn't mature enough , is it true ? :x
- can give me some advise ?
do i need to change for it ?
now i can't feel happy anymore , my beloved sweetheart wasn't e same in e past le . )'x
if you know me well , i only will say `qi hua' .
but since you all think is truth than jiu let it be bahs , i've no words to say .
hope you'll be happy , hope we still are friends even we are not sweetheart .
girl , take cares .
& i miss you loads ~
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*lunar new year eve*
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