hello everyone ~
i'm back le ..

firstly , i need to wish my hubby a HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
he old liaos , he already 22 yrs old le ..
old man le , jk jk only ..

sad that , i need go my ahma's funeral after my work . =(
today is her last night le , tml jiu need send her off le . =(
R.I.P my beloved ahma !
i love you ahma ..

i've choosen to stop thinking of you le !
i stop myself to stop love you !!
i used something to cover over my pain and everything !
i think {C} know what i'm saying .. (i think)
also don't say i like {Mr.XH} le !!
won't go contact him unless he contact me . (LOL)

ytd(29) i go meet {Mr.J} with {Mr.N} too .
meet at ps than wak to near-by lucky plaza deh kopitiam eat .
{Mr.J} treat me eat !! (thanks)
than last min , they say going boat quay eat .
so went over lors . (-.-)
drink at 7987 deh pub , drink tiger beer . (zzz)
went home around 2+ , reached home at 3am .

didn't go work today cos of my back and laziness . =(
after have a rest , i feel much more better after all the things happened .. =)
got tell the boss that i didn't go work , of cos . =)

once before i don't believe in love , you* gave me the feeling in love .
soon i've a broken heart and now i still trying my best to forget you and your everything !
now left with memories , many pieces of broken heart and a "unwanted scar" .
now idk what's love but {Mr.J} shown me his love and care .
he really very familiar to {Mr.R} ! cos he say deh things and do deh things all almost the same as what {Mr.R} done to me before . =/
seriously , i still waiting for you {Mr.R} but now i'll try not to think of you le !
good luck for finding your girlf ~
that's all , end topic of i and you deh things !! =D

working tml ..
feeling quite sians ..
wed off . (hopefully can !) cos i need go check-up for my back cos i kena my back during packing things . =(
is fcuking painful !! =(

that's all ..
GOOD LUCK TO ME !!
byeee ~

i'm back ~
back to alive ~ =D

today is my first day of work , quite slack but still tiring cos i didn't sleep enough .
ytd i was damn hurt and sad cos of {Mr.R} .
only {C} and {Mr.J} know what have happen .
really thanks to {C} be there for me !
i'll be there for you too ! don't everything hide inside your heart alright ! =D

also thanks to {Mr.QT} chit-chat with me on the phone cos i was damn really hurt and sad ytd !
although he don't know anything . (laughs*)

rare that {Mr.XH} text me mid of the night when i was sleeping . (-.-)
than 5+ kena awake cos of sms . text till 6+ than sleep back .
8+ kena awake by sms again ! (-.-")
sleep till 10.30 than wake up , bath and prepare . =/

was touch that {T} came down to my workplace find me . (w/o telling me)
also bought rice , cake and bubble tea for me ! (thanks !)
wonder tml got who bought food for me . (LOL)
tml have no money to eat le . (SERIOUS)
GOD BLESS ME*

tml working from 10.30-10.30 , so long . (OMG)
need sleep early le ..
must rmb me arhs , i will seldom coming to update my blog le .
only 1st oct i can get pay . =(

that's all ..
anything text me , don't call !
byeee ~

no matter what , i need to forget you .
no matter how hard it is !
i need to change my life style and myself !
i want a brand new of GINNIE KEW !! =D
for me to know , for you to find out . ^.^

i'll stop thinking of you . (trying my best)
will stop crying over you . (trying very hard)
i don't want raining days , i want sunshine !
only {C} know what it means . =)

he(hubby) and fil are driving me crazy !!
i hate them !
guys are so selfish !!
i hate guys , esp selfish guys ! =x
no guy is good in this world !
they only know what's F-C-U-K girls and hong girls .
don't even want bother about girls feeling !
i prefer to be lesbian than tgt with a guy ! =x
(jk only , now still with him(hubby) and don't know will last anot)

brand new of me is coming ..
looking forward on coming friday !
hope i can cope with it !!
JY GINNIE KEW ! I CAN DO IT ! JY !! =D
than a new life of mine is coming , happy happy . (heehees*)

that's all ..
byeee ~

today is friday le .
happy that can finally rest , sleep late and wake up late . (LOL)

today i cancel meeting with {Mr.L} cos he text me that time already 7+ pm , kinda lazy to go out le . (LOL)
so change to tml , after i go my friend's baby birthday . =D

don't know what movie to watch sial .
too many choices le .. =x
how how how ? (LOL)

and that {Mr.J} very nice nahs . know what i thinking about .
p.s. he's not the guy i everytime go down to town and waited for him to finish work .
i change from {Mr.J} to {Mr.XH} .

i'll be going for training on next friday and soon start work le .
looking forward ! =D
working is better and work hard for my baby and my O's .
save money first . (heehees*)

what i say i'll mean it , just need more time for it .
cos i've no confident on anything ! =(
hope i can cope with it !

that's all ..
byeee ~

today i've been missing you again ..
i can't stop my mind from missing you ! =x
i need you still .
i want to see you , really !

while my heart was bleeding , sky was raining . (is real)
today went amk hub to interview job .
i'll going for training on next friday and sat .
i like this job cos don't need stand whole day and quite relaxing .. (LOL)
hope i can cope with it ! (GOD BLESS ME*)

went to town to collect {C}'s phone than went to far east to buy my strap . (-.-)
than waited for them to finish work .
than went home .

today kena nag by my fil .
cos i keep going out , don't want take care baby . =(
i also a human that need to go out plus he not at home i more even sians .
facing both of his parents , i'm tired and stressful . =(
i need a break !

thanks to {C} and {Mr.J}(today just know him) courage me and trying make me happy . =)
i know he left me is a hurtful thing but my life still goes on ..
right {Mr.R} , this sentence is what you teach me before .
friends come and go , life still need to goes on .
yes my life goes on but is incomplete with the happiness .

hopefully , no nagging tml and sat !
cos i going out again . (-.-)
GOD BLESS !!
{Mr.XH} going stop working at town le , so sad . =/

that's all ..
byeee ~

overdue photos ; 17 aug 09
photos that he keep playing with my mil's phonebook . (LOL)











monday(17/8/09)
accompany {C} to repair her phone .
than we went to her friend's workplace find her friend than we go kfc eat .
waited for her friend to finish work than went home .

tuesday(18/8/09)
stay at home .

wednesday(19/8/09)
went down to town to wait for {C} and her friend to finish movie .
so i text {Mr.J} to accompany me for awhile than he went up to work .
soon they reached , {C} scare me . -.-
waited for {Mr.J} to finish work as going 10pm le . -.-
tgt go cine to eat , kfc again . (LOL)
went home next .

this is a short video of he keep playing the phonebook . -.-

let's start my topic ..
on 15aug09 , i meet {Mr.R} in the morning .
*don't ask for it and i won't say it at here or you*
with of cos his younger brother around .

than went over to my uncle house , to ask for my father the $20 cos i spend it to buy cig .
before went off , my uncle gave me money too .
but now left only 20+ and i going to cwp later in the afternoon .
so means , no money left le . =(

around evening time , went admiralty find {C} .
with her friend around .
keep disiao me to go find {Mr.J} .
but i didn't , of cos . (LOL)
around 7+ , went take mrt back home first . (phone low batt)
but i drag the time of bathing , become {L} need wait for me . (psps)
we went tpy central to watch "UP" , before that we missed some part cos of my stomach . (-.-)
my stomach full with gas and make me feel so unwell and visiting the toilet so many times . =(
really is damn funny lahs ! (w/o 3D)
thanks sis for accompany me for the night ! =D

around 3+ she went off , say bth le need to sleep le . (LOL)
before that , i keep finding people to go other place but she underage can't go pub . (sad)
so end up , we went back to my hubby's house .
call {Mr.J} to disiao , he inside the pub . (-.-)
make me feel like go pub drink . =/

to {Mr.R} : although you choose to leave but my heart still remain the same . although missing you like hell (-.-) but i still love you . maybe i need time to forget you or maybe use someone's to replace you to forget you . even i do so , i still miss you alot ! you really is a nice guy that i've met , i didn't regret loving you and i wish you all the best to have a girlf ! (JYJY) hope we still are friends ! can we ? =)

i hope this time is the last time i mention about you le .
already 1mth+ le , i still can't forget you . =(
miss you make my heart ache .
no matter how much i miss you and love you also won't change the fact .
i can't do anything about it .
you left is the best choice of yours , i guess .
friend is better , LOL .
my laughter fills with sadness .
i can't find the real happiness inside of me , unless i with you . =S

i didn't intend to divorce now , i only will do it when the day i really bth le than i do it .
(maybe only , it's depend how bad is the thing is)
i really was stupid enough to love a guy to the max till i get is hurt and sadness than happiness !
i really don't know what's love to me and i still believe in love ? (idk , really)
now i scare i'll have another feeling on {Mr.J} !
will keep think of him for no reason . =/
{L} say is just a "hao gan" not love ..
i think i need avoid him to prevent have a deeper feeling on him . (LOL)
plus i was "sot dao" by {Mr.J} , he looks not bad too . (LOL)

tml i need take care baby ,
need to sleep early .
that's all .
byeee ~

12aug09






went to orchard find {C}'s friends , one seen before . one got contact through sms .
waited for them to finish work than take train back home .

14aug09

p.s all are overdue photos .

if you ask me why i can't happy like past , i can say is idk ..
i can't find any happiness onto it .
i feel damn emo nowadays .

i want to get a job fast le !
no money will die ! =/
i really feel like go to a far places that nobody can reach dao me .
but i .. =(

hope to see my happiness again . =)
i'm fine alright . =)

that's all ..
byeee ~