suddenly i so miss my hubby now !

yet he wasnt at home now . )'x

about i & her things , i guess i'll use time to change myself .

i not trust in friendship le . :x

now i only want to be a good mummy of gavin poon !

work i think ...

i also dont know .

i'm so lost now .

my close friend cos of those things dont wish to make friend with me .

hubby wasn't by my side whenever i need him .

only my gan-bibi be there for me .

BUT i NOT his girlf !

i told him not to love me , i still have a hubby .

unless i have divorce with him le .

currently , i do still loves my hubby !

wei le my baby , i hold onto this marriage !

but still i still will cry during e nights , even post a post i also will cry .

past she would be there for me but now ..

no more le .

unless i changed she cai think want be friend with me . )'x

my life changed again .

change to a world that i totally was lost .

why world need money ?

cos of money , many people quarrelled . ):

to her*

i will be using time to make myself change ,

idk will change into what .

take cares & rest well .

i still be there for you whenever you needs me !! :D

for money , i admit i do spend alot .

i didnt say i didnt think of my son .

spend money is e way i pamper myself or even vent my anger onto it .

if you all were in my shoes , you all will know .

i guess i wont be so often contact you all le , if not again cos of something quarrel than wasnt friend .

i tired of everything i've !!

people only blame me for something but you all got think of my feeling ?

i got mother gave birth me .

i do have flesh & blood , which means i very mind every words & actions you all do on me !

will led me have depression & even go hurt my own body to leave this stupid world !

i can tell you all is i do really have depression !

everyday cries , no much mood in eating , very moody , vent anger easily .

you all sure wont believe cos i in you eyes is love spending money , useless , unmature & more ..

only my son would make me smiled whenever i was sad .

i love my son alot !

i cant dont have my son + i cant dont see my son !

i need him alot in my life !