hmms , i'm back to update my blog le ! :)

okays , let's start my topic today . :D

went to meet him* .

yes him* , i crush on him ! {wasn't wrong right}

most stupid is i went out w/o ez-link card & money ! {rushing as he reached there}

not i rush to meet him okays , is i dont like people wait for me ! {dont anyhow think!}

when i reached mrt station , i realise i didnt bring my ez-link . {zzz}

all e way back home to take . {tired}

when reached city hall , saw my uncle . {lols}

after saying few words , went up to find him .

*{as we hang around at city hall area}*

yes , he treated me eat lunch , dinner & movies ! {happy}

inside e movie threate , while watching e movie i was shivering . {too cold le}

we went watch e dragon balls . {something about there}

quite nice but quite lame .

9+ we went home as he need go back camp .

went 128 coffeeshop to find my hubby , mil & his friends .

slack & talk cock awhile jiu went home . {as baby want drink milk}

bathed than online .

now he* give me e feeling are so special that i dont have before when i was dating in e past .

& i feels i & my hubby dont have e love on it as seen all his msg & calls before & all was "her" .

{so disappointed ! VERY HEART BROKEN & SAD !}

although i still will worry about him & wanted to continue but i was too tired to love him le .

many times i just wanted to end but whenever i see baby gavin , i dont want to give up anymore !

e feeling was damn .. i also dont know how to say about it . :(

say seriouly i really really feel like giving up but can i do it ?

- i dont think so & i really really dont want baby grow up in a incomplete family !

- as i know deh feeling of growing up w/o a father/mother .

- when i was young , my friends would laugh at me why i no mother while they have .

- & see mostly got mother accompany them & i dont have !

- e feeling was damn hurtful !

cos of this , i cried damn loads of times ! {nobody knows this !}

as i grow up , i've been loads of things ! {UNHAPPY THINGS !}

i keep changing boyf in e past bcos they only want sex !

say seriously I DON'T LIKE MY BOYF DO SEX WITH ME !

I ONLY WANT A VERY STABLE RELATIONSHIP !

- but i dont have it . :(

yes , now i'm married but my marriage wasnt stable & dont feel happy whenever i with him .

- happy will but not like he* give those happy .

& now i know cdac is hua she . means cdac=hua she . {lols}

but nvm lahs , go try again . :)

go tpy central meet adelene tgt with my baby . :)

so long didnt bring him out alone le ! {so miss e days i & him tgt}