i'm back to update my blog .

i need to explain is he* know me very well ; damn well .

he know e whole story of my very bad past .

i told him e true WITHOUT telling lies !

& i DIDN'T act i very ke lian okays !

& i DIDN'T SNATCH OTHER's PEOPLE BOYF OKAYS !

YES , I DON'T GIVE A DAMN BUT YOU'RE MISTAKEN ME OKAYS !

WHICH I HATE THE MOST !

i've changed my number already .

when i've settle all of it , i'll tell you guys my number .

now i showing you e process le .

but i WON'T PUT MY BLOG AS PRIVATE AS I'VE NOTHING TO HIDE ABOUT !

& now i telling you guys is , no point of telling me what's my bad past !

you are not couraging me !

you're making me feel damn hurt & sad !

others may pull themself up but i cant okays !

i tired my best to forget my past but why need to dig it all over again ?!

really feels so happy to dig other's people past ?

why don't put yourself on me , you like people to say your past ?

how would you feels ?

yes , i owe people's money .

but why dig my past ?

after you guys told me , you guys know i'm crying all along ?

but i try to pull myself all over again .

i tired finding jobs already .

but yet i need to take care baby . nobody helping me about it .

how stress i am now okays !

i want study is to complete my mother last wish .

i still rmb how my mother passed away .

she worry about me & keep crying .

so now i want to be a good girl !

i've been weeks that didn't smoke & going pub le .

but why i can't do the things i want to ?

i want to study first but yet need to work .

seriously i read a book which raymond* bought .

it says : no matter how's bad is your past is , just step forward & move on .

so now i stepping forward .

so can stop saying bad about me & instead of saying couraging words ?

is it so difficult ?

& ya , i read a young mummy blog .

know about she torn her marriage cert , which i did it before for quite long .

i still viewing you guys deh blog .

friends for years , i still rmb all those memories .

& i will keep moving on to a better future !

& do take care my friends , although we now are not friends any more . :)

hope we have fate to be friends again .

i miss you guys ; saying seriously .

& i know you guys will say me again but nvm bahs .

NOW I SAY ONE MORE TIME AGAIN !

I DIDN'T ACT , I SAY IT FROM BOTTOM OF MY HEART !

SO STOP SUSPECTING ME !

today is i & my hubby tgt deh 2yrs & 1mth .

time flies ~

now i already 18yrs old le .

really need to grow up le !

so again , i changed my blog link .

everything starts new & fresh ! :X

soon i going change my email in msn le . x(

sorry everyone that i keep changing my blog link !

HAPPY 7th MONTHS OLD TO BABY GAVIN !

*ytd is baby gavin 7th months old* .

• have 2 teeth below his gums .
• drinks 270-300ml of milk .
• drinks 270 of milk with ceral .
• eat porridge almost everyday .
• able to sit down ; for very long
• love to take things to put inside his mouth
• love flipping around
• love to eat foods ; greedy baby
• love to entertain himself
• love to watch tv
• don't like to drink plain water
• very naughty , active baby
• talking baby language
• love saying "bu" & all his saliver came out
• will reach out for phone to eat
• able to hold onto milk bottle
• won't sleep when we(parents) not around him ; when we're outside

For me now ;

my shorts ; size 30 , also getting lossen .

but still got my ugly scratch marks & fats on my stomach . >.<

1. wish those marks gone & no fats on my stomach ! {so ugly}
2. he getting heavier which soon i can't carry him . =.=
3. hope i can find a job to work ; to feed myself & pay bills .

tml i going mediacorp deh baby coarse to know more about baby stuffs .

but troublesome is , need to pay by cheque lors . {zzz}

i going with my sister . {real elder sister}

& meeting him* after e coarse . :)

today i very unhappy !

cos of those girls deh words !

i dont give a damn but i really damn unhappy !

thought he'll cheer me up but i'm wrong .

cos of he dont want to me to meet stacey & nick .

they're my friends , wasnt wrong to meet a friend but why ?

cos of nick done that thing on me ?

& using me ?

i can forgive & forget but you cant .

{i was totally lost ! very lost !}

a very close friend left me .

now i'm was alone ; i'm a shit to everyone eyes .

thought of having you* , can change my life & everything but i'm wrong .

thanks for e everything .

know what's everything about friends ; i really seen it true .

very true & clear .

really thanks alot !

2 more days to my 18th birthday le !
seriously idk what to do on my birthday lors . :(
they left my world but raymond teach me something .
i cant change their mind which they 0nly saw e surface of me !
{which wasn't e real !}
he really have changed me alot !
i've been stop smoking for 2weeks+ le !
surprise right .
have been stop going pub since e day of don't know when .
1month ?
yeah , i say it & i mean it le . :)
but only i didn't go find job to do . :(
looking forward on sat ; meeting him go sh0pping . ^^
i really hopes i can grow up ; my thinking ! :)
hope didn't disappointed on you guys !