i'm back to update my blog .

i need to explain is he* know me very well ; damn well .

he know e whole story of my very bad past .

i told him e true WITHOUT telling lies !

& i DIDN'T act i very ke lian okays !

& i DIDN'T SNATCH OTHER's PEOPLE BOYF OKAYS !

YES , I DON'T GIVE A DAMN BUT YOU'RE MISTAKEN ME OKAYS !

WHICH I HATE THE MOST !

i've changed my number already .

when i've settle all of it , i'll tell you guys my number .

now i showing you e process le .

but i WON'T PUT MY BLOG AS PRIVATE AS I'VE NOTHING TO HIDE ABOUT !

& now i telling you guys is , no point of telling me what's my bad past !

you are not couraging me !

you're making me feel damn hurt & sad !

others may pull themself up but i cant okays !

i tired my best to forget my past but why need to dig it all over again ?!

really feels so happy to dig other's people past ?

why don't put yourself on me , you like people to say your past ?

how would you feels ?

yes , i owe people's money .

but why dig my past ?

after you guys told me , you guys know i'm crying all along ?

but i try to pull myself all over again .

i tired finding jobs already .

but yet i need to take care baby . nobody helping me about it .

how stress i am now okays !

i want study is to complete my mother last wish .

i still rmb how my mother passed away .

she worry about me & keep crying .

so now i want to be a good girl !

i've been weeks that didn't smoke & going pub le .

but why i can't do the things i want to ?

i want to study first but yet need to work .

seriously i read a book which raymond* bought .

it says : no matter how's bad is your past is , just step forward & move on .

so now i stepping forward .

so can stop saying bad about me & instead of saying couraging words ?

is it so difficult ?

& ya , i read a young mummy blog .

know about she torn her marriage cert , which i did it before for quite long .

i still viewing you guys deh blog .

friends for years , i still rmb all those memories .

& i will keep moving on to a better future !

& do take care my friends , although we now are not friends any more . :)

hope we have fate to be friends again .

i miss you guys ; saying seriously .

& i know you guys will say me again but nvm bahs .

NOW I SAY ONE MORE TIME AGAIN !

I DIDN'T ACT , I SAY IT FROM BOTTOM OF MY HEART !

SO STOP SUSPECTING ME !