i'm back ~
today evening time , went out with meet Joss .
tgt with her friend and Joss's babygirl .
she so cute !
will update more details on my private blog . =)

almost cried on the way to there .
i really had enough all of it !!
i'm tired , seriously tired !!

really damn shag and moody .
shall end at here .

byeee ~

today is a tiring day BUT also a happy day .
why ?
cos my babyboy♥ don't need go over nanny's place ! ^.^

woke up around 8+ in the morning , for my babyboy's scan+check up .
he's fine now , 4 more mths later need go for check up to see he was able to talk and walk by himself .
as now he will talk baby language and walk while holding the holder inside the playpen .
also will find someone/something to give him support to stand up .

while scanning , he cry like nobody business . =(
feel sad and helpless that i can't do anything about it . =(

after scanning , went to Kopitiam to eat our breakfast .
than went to 'K' clinic to wait for his turn to see doctor .
waited for so long lors !
when is our turn , mostly of those parents went back le .

after that , cabbed back home .
reach home already 1+ , so decide not putting him at nanny's place .
we went to tpy central the kiddy palace , shopping .
with baby , hubby and sil .
bought some things back home .

reached home , baby was sleeping .
so am i . (ahahah)
6+ he woke up , so am i .
and now i going to eat my late dinner le !

maybe i'll update on my 'private blog' , shall see how than .
byeee ~

i'm back to update my blog . =)
just came back from buying durians , with him .
yeah , craving for so long the durian finally i can eat le ! =D
but !!
we didn't talk on the way there and back home .

i've create a private blog .
if needed , i'll go there and update . =)

have no reason why i feel moody while i feel happy .
happy cos he are back home and ask me go buy tgt .
i went 7-Eleven buy drinks while he buy durian .

quite nice at the starting but when reaching the bottom , wasn't nice cos can see the water on the durians . =/
P.S. bought is put inside the box not from the durian shell .

need go sleep early .
need wake up go KKH for my babyboy♥ scan .
hopes he are alright !! =)

nights everyone ~
byeee ~

爱 My Beloved Cousins ; XOXO `

Cheer Me Up Whenever I'm Down♥

Babies And Mothers ; My Love♥

Always Help Me Whenever I Need Someone♥

♥One And Only ; BabyGavin♥


just want to thanks all those been cheering me nowadays !
without them , i guess now i was at heaven le . =/
will be strong and cheer up . =D
will find a job soon !!
(cos of some reasons , only plurkers know why)
i'll treasure what i've now and won't regret what i have .
might will have some slight changes in my life soon .
(don't tell you why , secrets)
so unlucky that , my "da yi ma" come visit me ! =(
mood going change again !!
wed , going kkh for my babyboy♥ scan .
now i going eat my tibits than mac le .(save money)
shall end at here .
many people waiting to see my blog le . (ahahah)
take care and byeee ~

Labels : I'm Alright And Fine Now ! Feeling Much More Better Already ! Thanks ALL !

My Cheeky BabyBoy♥

Side View Of Him While He Playing With My Keys

Shake My Keys

Last But Not Least , My Naughty BabyBoy♥

Muacks To My Love Ones♥

I Missing You And Waiting For You To Come Back♥


many people asked me "do i still love my hubby ?"
my answer always is "idk"
the fact is i still love my hubby .
he won't know how much i love him .
i've been crying all nights just bcos of him ! =(
loads of people cheer me up . (thanks and you all rocks my life !)
esp cindy , joss , mandy;candybabe and zhiyong;brother .
they guide me , cheer me up whenever i'm down .
and also got others too ! (big thanks from me to you !)
XOXO ``
hope to you all SOON !
free must text me to jio me go out !! (^.^)
that's all ..
byeee ~

yeah .. i'm back to alive !
for days , i've been so moody even now still feel moody but feel better already . =D

thanks to those ladies cheering me up !!
you girls rocks !!!!!
love you all , muacks* .

don't call me as i've no mood to chat on phone , text me better !
sorry !

now idk how to settle my bills . =(
500plus . sigh !
think i need to be strong and need more confident on working !
GOD PLEASE BLESS ME !!

babyboy was given to nanny take care for weekdays and become i more and more lonely and more moody than before ! =(
hubby wasn't there for me , nobody at home .
want work yet no confident and no heart on working . SIGH !
need more du li le !!

GINNIE KEW YOKE FONG , YOU CAN DO IT !!
JIA YOU JIA YOU !!
NEED TO PAY BILL AND FEED BABYGAVIN !!
DON'T DEPEND ON THAT IDOIT !
RATHER GO OUT THAN WORKING ! AH !!

blogger keep giving trouble , so irratting !
tml will be better .
so shall end at here ..

bye ~~

just changed my blog skin and upload some of my past and this year photos . =)

is it nice ? laughs*

can't update my babyboy's things , due to blogger got something wrong . =(

blogger arhs blogger , faster okays !
please guai guai hao mahs .
i need to update my things ! =x

nowadays , i wasn't in deh good mood .
i need someone to lend me shoulder to cry with .
but i don't see there's one for me . =/

you laugh at me , not making me feel good .
you drift apart from me and i trying to avoid you .
i sucess that i didn't contact you but i still miss you . =/

sigh ~
everything gone wrongly this time .
i'm strong in the outer but my inner wasn't ! =(
my inner was keep on bleeding non-stop .

i miss my mother , my father !
i wish i can go back in the past !
i don't want currently the things happening around me ! =(

shall end at here .
bye ~

don't know what's wrong to blogger .
cannot see properly all the things inside to post deh post . =(
wanted to upload photos , become cannot le . =(

and i no longer working at bugis junction le .
wanted to quit but she called and said my boss find a replacement le .
so my day end like this .

not going find job first , need a break after all things happening around me !
i need a shoulder and a ear and a heart that i can trust you .

but i don't have . =(
so bear with all things now .
so suffering ~

hope to see ah pek this sat !
i got many many things to tell him and need his advise ! =)

that's all .
byeee ~

i'm back .
today damn tiring and damn nb fcuk-up !

just bcos of not feeling well when i woke up .
than is see my mil face .
than is my working friends .

just bcos idk and i'm new to this line , you all can anyhow say me and bully me !?
today i ate late lunch bcos of that cb wendy !
say need clean all first and stock up those stock .

finally , siting went go buy food . =)
ate finish within 4mins .
ate wanton noodless .
know me well , you'll know how slow i'll eat in deh past .
but today i was damn hungry and yet need wait till so long . =/

so amy asked me "you go back and think . this job whether suit you anot . this job is need go approach customer and not keep quiet ." and more but due i too angry , i forgotten le . =/
so no matter what , i'll bear with it till 7 i get my pay ! so this week days , i'll find a job to cover over . =)

GOD BLESS ME*

after work , i at city hall .
i text that cb wendy .
said : "no matter what , i'll work till i get pay . and i'll go resign . don't need say my bad words behind me . don't judge me by just working only 2day . my character not that open and i try my best to approach customers . na dao you all born jiu will work . no right . so don't need say anything behind me !"

angry till i feel no strength . (don't know why too)
angry till almost drop my tear . (on deh way back home)

i also skip my dinner cos of wendy one word .
"LAZY" so i didn't eat my dinner and lunch .
cos i wasn't allow to take out 40 bucks .
so i went buy famous amous to eat .
so left 30+ , told her .
travel 2 time to draw money out . yet she say "LAZY" i can't draw out my money and can't eat .

today also quarrlled with QT . (don't wish to mention)
today damn unlucky ! =(

shall end here .
nights ..

i'm back to do a some update .
this post is for me to vent my anger and complain .
you want you can continue read if not can close/go other website .

i really don't know how to stand my mil .
her attitude are really sucks !
this can't that can't !

want bring my son out also need ask her !? (wtf)
today i've no strength to quarrel with her . (damn shag)
feel damn moody today . =(

say she don't allow me go out , is SHE DON'T LET ME BRING BABY OUT LORS ! (nbcb)
like her son . (damn fcuk-up)

i work also wrong .
i know i last min work but i've no choice mahs .
now is my fault again . (sians)

ytd work , see their fcuk face .
say my bad words behind me . (nb)
i first time work in this line okays ! (ccb)
i've my own limit deh okays .

i need try my very best to rmb all price already if not i don't dare to ask them what they want . =(
feel i'm so useless ! =(

not a good mother nor a good wife nor a good working partner ! ='(
HAISH ~~

shall end at here bahs .
take care and byeee ~

hieee ~
i'm back !
got anybody suspect whether i got go work ?

so tiring now .
reached home not long nia .
why ?
cos i working ..
at bugis junction , lvl 3 .
got heart jiu find it yourself . (laughs*)

today should be going pub drink but lazy lahs .
too tired + no money go home !
go there only few hrs nia , not fun . (laughs*)
need go remove my make-up and head to sleep liaos .

take care everyone .
byeee ~

HELLO EVERYONE ~
got anyone miss me ?
been days that i didn't update my blog le .
feel so bored nowadays !!

and my bill are making gone crazy !!
500 over , how to pay . =(
he also don't want help me pay also . (wtf)
HOPE I CAN FIND ONE JOB TO WORK WITH !
if not , i'll gone crazy soon !!
my previous bill still haven't clear .
now all come in one time . (OMG)

yes ! tml friday , finally le !!
i can take some rest le . (YAY)
sat go drink !
don't ask me i go with who , i won't say .
(still don't know going where to drink)
so don't need ask me . (thanks)

think tml i'll edit my blog , once again . (feel so messy)
this time , i need to be more stronger than before !!

need pay all my bill , study for my o'lvl and look forward for babygavin to study .
for Mr.R , i decide to put him down and forget him !!
*cos of some reason , i need to do so* (don't ask me why cos i won't say why too)

yes ! sat i going to work le ! (HAPPY + NERVOUS + EXCITED)
work from 12 noon to 10.30pm , at tpy area .
selling things .
only work from friday-sunday and $5/hr .
hopefully i can't cope with it !

to QT asshole :
now i go work le , don't play play hors . laughs* shall meet you when free . =) will meet you soon alright , don't jio me go drink during weekdays . i can't go , want jiu either friday night or sat night . =)

looking forward to stacey's baby full mth , my boy's 1st birthday and more outings !!
so long didn't enjoy at outside le . (due to i've married + have one boy) *haish*
girls , jio me out when can alright . =D

shall end at here ..
take care and bye everyone ~

today , went to bugis with cindy .
for my interview . (hopes she'll call up and tell me when can start working)
i need to work hard and save money le .
no money really will die ! =/
i need pay all my bills by myself le .
i shall not depend on him nor my friends and families le . (trying)
GOD BLESS ME !!!!!
HOPE I CAN WORK !!!
NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS !!
GINNIE KEW YOKE FONG ! JIA YOU !!!!!
also hope i and my hubby's relationship can improve and have a stable marriage .
(hope to have second baby on 2011/2012 and have one owe flat on 2010/2011)
today , didn't edit my photos as i very lazy to edit . (heehee*)
shall enjoy it ..

















that's all . =)
even you treat me that way , i still love you so . =/
i still miss you and keep thinking of you . (don't why too)
you treat me in this way , you not going making me feel better .
yay ~ friday or sat night i going to drink !
so happy and looking forward . ^^
girl , today we talked so much and i feel quite happy when i with you .
meet up often . (if can)
take care and nights ~

HELLO EVERYONE ! ^^
got anyone miss me ? (LOL)
i miss Ms.Meow and Mrs.J now !
i try so hard to forget you* , end up i can't do it =(
sigh ~
i still love you , miss you and can't stop thinking of you .
yes ! next week maybe i'm going to go drink . =D
meet up on next week =)
been staying at home for one week le . =(
nobody jio me go out .
so no choice , stay at home ..
yes , i've clear 100 bucks for my bill ! ^^
thanks to my father and Mr.J , lend me money .
still left 100 bucks , who can lend me first ?
sep confirm return you !!!!!
i going find job le , no money going to die liaos . =(
GOD BLESS ME ~
BLESS ME TO MANAGE FIND IT ONE !
I DON'T MIND XINKU .
ALL I JUST NEED MONEY NOW !!!!!
also help me look out for job too . =)
no fast food / waiter / pub .
cos i've injure my hand before so can't carry heavy stuff ! =(
i fall , i climb up again .
don't know when i'll break down again . =(
always nobody be there for me when i'm down !!!!!
who really can be there for me ? =/
after you left i trust nobody , don't know .
even you're back , i also feel weird .
friends always comes and go .. =(
when they come back to my life , they changed .
feeling fade and weird . =(
i kept some distance to them .
feel quite difficult to believe someone .. =(
i know some also have difficulties to believe on me , so i was understandable . =)
sometimes , i miss my pregnancy time and my babyboy♥ just born deh looks .
times flies ~
shall end at here .
byeee ~

i'm here to update le . =)
been so long didn't update my blog le . =x
cos i waiting for them to send/upload those photos . =)
now i get it le , thanks ~
mostly is overdue photos .
i've not text/call him* for number of days le .
just can't stop thinking of him . =/
trying my best to forget him* .
start my life new , alone ..
used to it to my alone life le .
and congrats to lovelygirl♥ that she pregnant le . =)
be careful of your health and eat more and rest more .
hope to see you soon ..
seeing so many people pregnant , give birth and pregnant again . =x
i feel like having second one but can't . =(
cos marriage on rocks now . =/
wish that we didn't married and now was single .
single is better ! single life ROCKS ~
shall enjoy those photos ..





















whatever i've been through i already have been through .
now we have stop contacting each other le .
hope you're fine and please take good care of yourself alright .
i still love you and i miss you .
good-bye le , Mr.R .
shall end at here .
byeeeee ~