today , i didn't sleep well .

woke up around 4+ till 10+ .

thought today got scan for my babyboy♥'s head .

called up to kkh , they said is on 29th july .

10.10am for deh scan and 12.10pm for seeing doctor .

today feel damn moody , sleepy and tired ..

tired of my life and everything .

feel there's no meaning staying a life . =/

idk what's wrong with me ..

haish ~

very tired of staying at his family , tired of their quarrellings , tired of not being so freedom . tired of i actually wasn't a good mother of babyboy♥ .

i really feel like drinking right now !!

to numb myself ..

you changed , our feeling fade and we wasn't as close in deh past .

if you want to leave , i'm okays with it .

only few days or weeks or even mths i'll be using something to numb myself .

i'm tired .. really is tired ..

nights everyone !!