let's start my topic ..
on 15aug09 , i meet {Mr.R} in the morning .
*don't ask for it and i won't say it at here or you*
with of cos his younger brother around .

than went over to my uncle house , to ask for my father the $20 cos i spend it to buy cig .
before went off , my uncle gave me money too .
but now left only 20+ and i going to cwp later in the afternoon .
so means , no money left le . =(

around evening time , went admiralty find {C} .
with her friend around .
keep disiao me to go find {Mr.J} .
but i didn't , of cos . (LOL)
around 7+ , went take mrt back home first . (phone low batt)
but i drag the time of bathing , become {L} need wait for me . (psps)
we went tpy central to watch "UP" , before that we missed some part cos of my stomach . (-.-)
my stomach full with gas and make me feel so unwell and visiting the toilet so many times . =(
really is damn funny lahs ! (w/o 3D)
thanks sis for accompany me for the night ! =D

around 3+ she went off , say bth le need to sleep le . (LOL)
before that , i keep finding people to go other place but she underage can't go pub . (sad)
so end up , we went back to my hubby's house .
call {Mr.J} to disiao , he inside the pub . (-.-)
make me feel like go pub drink . =/

to {Mr.R} : although you choose to leave but my heart still remain the same . although missing you like hell (-.-) but i still love you . maybe i need time to forget you or maybe use someone's to replace you to forget you . even i do so , i still miss you alot ! you really is a nice guy that i've met , i didn't regret loving you and i wish you all the best to have a girlf ! (JYJY) hope we still are friends ! can we ? =)

i hope this time is the last time i mention about you le .
already 1mth+ le , i still can't forget you . =(
miss you make my heart ache .
no matter how much i miss you and love you also won't change the fact .
i can't do anything about it .
you left is the best choice of yours , i guess .
friend is better , LOL .
my laughter fills with sadness .
i can't find the real happiness inside of me , unless i with you . =S

i didn't intend to divorce now , i only will do it when the day i really bth le than i do it .
(maybe only , it's depend how bad is the thing is)
i really was stupid enough to love a guy to the max till i get is hurt and sadness than happiness !
i really don't know what's love to me and i still believe in love ? (idk , really)
now i scare i'll have another feeling on {Mr.J} !
will keep think of him for no reason . =/
{L} say is just a "hao gan" not love ..
i think i need avoid him to prevent have a deeper feeling on him . (LOL)
plus i was "sot dao" by {Mr.J} , he looks not bad too . (LOL)

tml i need take care baby ,
need to sleep early .
that's all .
byeee ~